A letter from Oct 20th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi! I wanna tell you that whenever you are right now, I am so proud of you but not us much as God does. You were amazing and strong. October 20, 2021 at night, you have just finished watching a beautiful interview of Joy, the girl who was raped by 7 men when she was 15 years old and yet decided to forgive them and trust in God still. Right now, you are in a really great mess, spiritually, not having time for the Lord and was forcing yourself to do something for Him just to say to yourself that you’ve actually done something. You are easily angry and frustrated. You cheat almost every quiz, activity, and even exams. It’s easier to do that during these days as every thing is done online. I hope you are well right now, I hope you are happy and already have passed your dark stages spiritually. I want you to be closer and closer to God that no matter what happen, you will always trust Him and make Him your all, because right now, He is the least of your priorities. I am so sorry that I don’t know how to start. I am trying every time but it doesn’t last long until I lost my eagerness to do so. I really want to be better. I am the worst for blaming the environment, my hair, the people at church and for doing nothing to take actions about be getting away from God. I am really sorry that you had to have this moment of your life when you were so far from Him. I promise to be better. I promise to have a bigger heart and a longer and stronger self control. I want to be a vessel of God. I will try to shatter all the shadows I built to hinder me. I wish you are far from what I am right now, from what you were 5 years ago. May you always remember Him in all your plans ahead and follow His lead. May you always trust Him in all your ways and decisions in life. I hope you are not being stubborn to God right now. No matter who you are and what you have become, acknowledge Him and always know that it is His plan for you and He will greatly use you. You must trust Him for He is good and He loves you more than He loved himself, righteous are His ways and His plans for those who trust in Him and love Him. As for me, I will make sure that in the coming days, I will be better for you and for Him. I will do things to please Him and not for anyone. I know He knows everything and He understands if I disconnect myself for a while to be connected. May you always find favor in Him. May He always bless you on the days ahead!