A letter from Oct 19th, 2021

hi~ i don't know what to say to you haha. ok! we're 19. i feel old. we just got our admission to ekounimed (i secretly hate that name and only uche knows i do). we're excited to leave home and go to school, explore and shii. we're not exactly happy with the course though. it's not what we want. we want to sing and although we don't think we're good enough, we want to try and really do it. we have a cold right now. and cough. that's annoying. *sigh* hmmm... i'm sending this 5 years into the future and i wish you all the best. i hope you fixed your nose. i hope you don't date someone just cos you're lonely. i hope they love you just as much as you love them cos i know you love a lot dumb dumb. i hope you love yourself. i hope you sing and do all the cool stuff you wanna do. i hope you're RICH and you buy PLENTY stuff for mommy, uche, nene and joseph. i hope you give them alllll the love and affection they deserve. did you dropout of university? 😂... if you did, i'm proud of you. if you didn't, i'm proud of you too. (not really)... grandma is still here, right? i hope she is. she has to be. i love her. love her too. i don't spend a lot of time with her these days and it's very sad... please, give her everything she wants and needs. she's precious and i can't imagine anything happening to her. loveth, i love you. i haven't been doing the best things for you physically and mentally but i love you and i hope that in the time you're reading this, i have become better for you. for us. you do your best and you'll be the best. you'll see. i'm going to set this for you to revive on brother tobi's ***** anniversary. remember it every year, hm? i love him so much and i wish he never left so just remember every year. just remember. we like to cry. don't change it. don't hold it in and pretend to be strong. i'm crying now. you'll probably cry when you get it too dumb dumb. i hope you look pretty when you cry because we do not look pretty right now mahn. so, i'm sitting on the toilet. peeing. crying. feeling. tell me, what are you doing right now? love, loveth~