A letter from Oct 19th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Soooo, I'm definitely procrastinating, like 100%, it's a Tuesday right now and I have a health assignment due in two days and an outdoor leadership one in three days. I seriously hope you've worked on becoming more productive and not so procrastinating. Aaaannnyyyywaaaayyyy... Here's to all the things I always said I wanted to be and do! 17, young dumb and brown... The world is my oyster right now. I've been told that the choices I make now will affect me for the rest of my life. You know what, I'm quite okay with that. No, I don't always make the best choices but hey at least I'm exploring my world. What could make your life happier? I always said that by 22 - Which is today, now, 🥰 that I wanted to be finished with a degree. My hope and dream were to have my teaching degree... Did I get it? Was it worth it? Did I follow my dream, for me? Am I going to work on a station? Have I gained confidence in my own voice? Did I finally break away from the pain and resentment? Did I grow? Has Joey proposed yet? If you guys have parted ways by now, text him, gurl, you text him. Yes, we were young but what we had was something out of this world. The love we made, the memories we shared... They were more than anything ever. Did you forget to love each other? Who's ego got in the way? Was I too stubborn? I have so many questions... I truly hope by now that you have forgiven dad, yes he is/was a bad man but it's been a very long time by now. I know that he didn't treat you right but everyone makes mistakes. Baby girl, you so desperately wanted to be loved by him, he isn't capable of loving you how you always dreamed so move on. Find happiness in other things and over my dead body, please don't make the same mistakes our dear mother did. Is your favourite song still "Can't help falling in love"? Coz far out the Karaoke Lia and I did in the car to that song... Did you finish Mcleods Daughters? Did you leave Tasmania? Do you regret it? Are you proud of what led you to this point in your life? You always wore your heart on your sleeve, please don't have changed that much. Love hard and believe the best always. Please, for my sake... stay true to what is right. Keep what is important close to your heart, don't ever let it go. You know what it's like to let go. Don't do it. Hold tight to what you love. I don't want to open this and you've made a fool of yourself. I have high hopes for you, I know what you're capable of so don't let anyone change your mind. I truly hope I am a better person than when I wrote this. Stay true, and stubborn, Yours truly, 17-year-old me xox