A letter from Oct 16th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi future me, it’s October 15, 2021. I’m here laying in bed it’s about 8:50pm. You’ve had a lot of things happen to you in April of 2021. Your nephew Cooper passed, biscuit passed, grandpa Fred passed, Mika passed. You went through hell and back. Then in October, shelbie passed. It’s been a rough year. You got kicked out of your house at 18, you went from 150 lbs to about 100 lbs from not eating and being super depressed, and from being a broke new adult. You are never home, you are going to parties having a horrible thing to happen to you. You find out your pregnant. You decide since you can barely keep yourself on your own two feet, that you can’t raise a child on your own. Let alone feed and care for this child. So you decide to abort the baby. Then you go through a time where you lied to everyone and going to a boys house every night to get away from yourself. You hurt a lot of people in doing all of this. But then you find T. You hangout with him for a night. You end up falling head over heels for this guy. He makes you feel loved and cared for. He makes you feel most at home with him. He pulled you out of your dark hole you couldn’t pull yourself out of. You end up getting close to your family again. You are doing amazing. You have your moments sometimes, but you are genuinely happy with him. You love him, you find out what love is really about. He is your forever person. I really hope you will be doing amazing, and I hope you are happy ;) Love, me ❤️