A letter from Oct 12th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, So…. How was the wedding? Was it perfect? Did you have lots of fun? I’m excited!! I’m honestly scared of the future right now… I’m not sure why, but I’m scared of change. I’m scared of *****, but I’m excited for new life… are you a parent yet? If not I know we are still trying, so here’s to hoping💛 in 5 years you should be… 29 going on 30. Make sure you have a 13 going on 30 party theme!! If you can still have parties ha ha . How is the pandemic by the way… did we travel? I like saying we as in my future self and i ahaha .. ummmm what else to say… I hope this is not too boring for you. I know I sound like a broken record but how Is the Body??? Don’t want to be too specific in case I trigger some downfall again like usual w the ed mind. But I hope I’m happy. Your 24 year old self is lying in bed crying, scared and excited for what’s to come in the future and that’s such loser behaviour but I can’t help it. Your hopefully future husband or past? Idk, but he’s snoring it up right now and I’ve never been so in love. Other than Leah, which I know Will hurt now, but remember how happy she made you then! Innocent happiness w her, she just turned 13 and I’m sad but happy I got to see her spend her lifetime with our family 🐶❤️ Like usual, no one will ever love you as much as I love you right now in this moment. See you soon!! ❤️❤️