A letter from Oct 12th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, How am i ? I hope i am doing well today i've made it to twenty five it's not an achievement nor a big deal but it's something. Last year and this year we have been plagued by a pandemic that is Covid-19 so being alive is something very hard but we get by i hope it will end soon things are much better than last year but still it's rough, so I'm feeling down in this time of my life but i think it's nice to see how i was and how i am so here we go. I have achieved some of the things that i wished for on my 18th and the rest is for the future or it will never happen god knows. I graduated as the 4th of my class i have a master degree in administrative law and thinking of continuing to P.H.D i hope by the time i get this lettre, if i'm still alive, that i will have my P.H.D. For my job i'm a financial analyst in a French team so i use both French and English, i don't get to travel in my job but the salary is very good, i have some issues right now i make a lot of mistakes i don't know if i will be able to continue or not but i hope that in the future i will not be working at the same place i hope that i will be working in something related to my field of study. My familly is doing good except for the cardiac operation of my father and the uterus removal of my mother everything else is good may god bless them i hope by the time i receive this lettre they are doing well and no one is sick and that we all still together. Also I'm starting to question my mental health, to be honest i've been doubting myself for a long time maybe since i was 13 or maybe younger, you know what was going on the, what is going now and what will happen in the futur so no need to be detailled, it's a nightmare inside my head but i just keep pushing through i hope that in the future i no longer see or imagine things and get over the guilt issues that i have with my mother. Finally as for the love life there is nothing and frankly i'm loathing myself for the way i was thinking before to be fixating on someone it's ********. Sadly i think i don't deserve love or maybe i'm doing it wrong i don't know what i do know is that there's no one in my life right now and that's making me feel empty and depressed, so i hope by the time i get this lettre that i will either be in love with someone who will love me back or at least have gotten used to the idea of being lonely. A dark lettre like the way i feel right now but i believe it will be better. Happy birthday. Sweet thirty Sincerly, twenty-five.