A letter from Oct 12th, 2021

Dear future, Actually I've wrote a letter but dmn, the letter is deleted (not on my purpose) Well congrats! You're 18 now and I think I don't need to say "Happy birthday" 🗿🙏🏻 But, my wish is always want u to be happy. Take easy everything, just the same like my day today. Yesterday I learn Math (but not focus, hehe) 'til 10.30 pm (and it just learn a simple math, such our lesson "bilangan berpangkat") and everything is screw tf up and it stressed me out (I even tried to use dyscalculia test, lmfao) but I can answer all of math exam questions (with feeling, ofc :'D) I really wanna be a master at math but heck, I don't like to count anything. I prefer languages 🗿 Now I'm in love with Greek and I know u still do it. Right? :D I'm learning Greek, Russian, Japanese, English, Germany, Arabic, Spanish, Portuguese, and French. Do u speak one of those languages or have u add/remove a language? Such my past (yea, not a long time but I forget what time was there), I learn Chinese and I've deleted it and add Portuguese because I love "Belas by Eevee" And your English? Do u speak like a native and have no mistakes in words just the same like my letter now? Don't say your English have no improve since you were 13 yo and you're still a sudden rapper or speak American English with British accent 😒 Your height? Now I'm around 152, uh so short :' I hope you're +175 cm now 🗿 Do you still talk with foreigner through online media? If yes, I hope u don't speak only with English or Indonesian or Malaysian 🗿 Your hair? Still screw tf up? AAA, MY HAIR IS WEIRD! But I hope (if u can) put a blue line on ur right hair, just the same like Chloe from Before The Storm :D Oh yea, what major r u in? U're in university, right? Now I'm confused of my major, a year left I'll enter the senior high school (now I'm 13 yo at grade 9) and my parent ask me to enter the IPA major (I HATE MATH AND IT'LL BE DOUBLE MATH!) Do our parents still want us to be a doctor or lecturer? They're annoying! If they ask me "Do u wanna birth?" I'll never say yes! I never thought will over in this freak world and I'm bored to get force by my own family to be whatever they want but they don't teach us anything (Such when I was 6-7-8 yo, they ask me to be smart at English or memorize the Quran but they don't), pfft Nvm, do you love astronomy? R u still 'planga plongo' everytime u watch the sky? 😄 Sometimes I feel proud when I can guess the stars names in the sky (night and morning). Lololol. I hope you'll say "sweet lonely childhood" 😺😞 Well, is Mars habitable? :D I remember, when I wanna be an astronomer and I told that to our parents but they're just laughing at me. It brokes me but I'm strong, Idc what they think, lol 😎 I hope you won't be the same as the lyrics of 21 pilots "My name's Blurryface and I care what you think" Take a break, this phone just lag and not on purpose the page is back to the menu. Meresahkan 🗿 Oh yea, around 2 years left, the Christmas and Ramadhan would come together right? :V Now let's continue! Uhm, our cure r only our fantasy and songs! :V How's Δαβίδ και Ληβ? I know they're still our best friends even though they're kinda (not kinda but 100%) psycho. And how's their family? I feel bad for their dad, mom, brother and both their sisters :' But aaa, their mom and sisters r freaking lovely! How's our fantasy map? Have u draw some lines? Draw fantasy map is still in my "to do list" but never done 🗿 Back to the real life, I know I kinda hate my family but I hope they're fine! R u far away from ur family? I can guess, you're still in a city/province with your family because they don't want you to go to anywhere. Yeah, they also break my dream to work or travel to Greece 😞 How's Fari Ahmad Antoni? He's the only my close friend now because he wants to hear my problem (I don't close to Zahra anymore, and I hate her) and he has the same taste in music. I know now he loves "Hero by Christina Perri and Memories" How's our cats? Especially: • Kunyuk (the first cat when we move to Lampung) • Geleng (Kunyuk's son but unfortunately he's disability to hear and control his body) • Lutung (the strongest and cutest yellow cat, the younger brother of Geleng) • Peang II (the first soft hairy and our mom favorite cat. Our first Peang has gone because of coronavirus suspect and our parents threw him, poor cat) • Enteng (I would like to call him "Foteini" (haha, girls name but Idc). He's quite the same like our first online friend from Greek (but I don't talk to her anymore). Foteini means the ones who bring the light. Foteini (cat) always shining in the darkness) Uh, I wanna poop 🗿 But I can handle it so I'll continue Who's your crush? :V I don't like to talk about our first crush because I'm tired of her and it makes me furious and goddmn (M. Shadows's voice) I'll be pretty weak when I see her but I'll be strong when I'm far away from her How's our beloved country, Indonesia? Who's the new president? Is him/her a great president like Mr. Joko Widodo? :> How's the education? Still sucks? And the corruptor? R they got the worse punishment? Hmm, still the same like my other letters, I'll give u some advice 🗿 1) Don't talk to anyone about your ********* even though she/he's the one you trust, let them know by themselves 2) Tell ur day about family is useless. They don't care 3) Don't tell your problems to anyone, you'll be ashamed (our natural feeling) 4) Watch ur tongue or have it cut from ur head (ehe). It means, keep stfu 5) Music is everything 🤘🏻🎶 :v Have u find some band/artist that u love and u never heard it? Such, at first I watched barefoot gen (creepy and not anymore. My feelings can't stay the same) and I found Hana by Eevee (it makes me feel strange). And now I love Eevee! Not, I've heard Korn band and I just listen to it and start loving them Wear ur headphone and plz, plz, plz, listen to: 1) Gypsy by Mercyful Fate (the intro riff is amazing) 2) Bleed by Meshuggah (at 4.11) 3) Secluded by Eevee (I always fantasize about my past self in Mencirim everytime I listen to it, especially at 00.23) 4) 1×1 by BMTH ("I don't know what hurts the most, holding on or letting go~" (at first it hits me but not anymore). Best part: Intro, 00.51 and 2.30 ("how much I hate myself") 5) Belas by Eevee (at 00.21 "Brancas, azuis, amarélas e pretas. Brincam na luz, as belas borboletas") And the last, uh... I've got no other topics so I'll end this sweet letter (I hope) 🙍🏻‍♀️ Please don't be sad when I don't care about your birthday and I hope your eyes won't tired to read it. I wrote this letter as a special letter (it's different than my other letters) Because I really want this letter as a greatest gift for you :'v May you have a great day, lovely! Yeah, but it would be cool if you put a little tears on this day 🗿