A letter from Oct 11th, 2021

Hello me As of writing this we are currently struggling whilst fighting the virus, we feel light headed, weak and degrading, being a teen at 16 never felt more like ****. If we make it through and become unchained to our own room I hope that you make it through our upcoming surgery. We haven't been born with the best health nor in a very stable family financially or socially but I hope that you can become one that upbrings a better family through learning from the mistakes you see that are invisible to others. I hope you still have your bucket list, due to the unfortunate circumstances you cannot reach experiences that others can easily achieve, be it sky diving, learning an instrument, going to an amusement park, try video games and consoles out of your reach, travelling the world you only see through a screen or experiencing them all with the one you may garner feelings towards, I hope you still can remember the essence of your soul; your future, present and past self's ideals and wishes. Now onto the part where I wish that you have become less of a piece of ****; have you finally defied your brain's addiction? Did you move your *** and actually try to change the state that you are in? Why was your family in the stage it was then? Failing to change the environment you lived in means you have reached the age of 21 yet accomplished nothing. So did you achieve our long term ideals? For it hasn't been a second and we contemplated how we would join the rest of the cogs, with our future decided by other than ourselves. You don't want to leave the system of cogs you want to be the one that all the other cogs admire, you want to be one of the golden cogs that have an impact on the rest. Now about the tasks at hand, were you able to become a polyglot? Have you achieved the college or your dreams? Are you in the military? Hope that we have become a better person by comparing our states now and before. This was a messy letter but I hope you reflect upon it, see you!