A letter from Oct 11th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, la vdd no se por que estoy escribiendo esto, se supone que estoy haciendo tarea pero ig que m aburrí, d vdd no se que estoy haciendo con mi vida, no se que quiero ??? si alguna vez m quiero casar ?? o si quiera voy a estar en una relación ?? (ok si quiero y sabes con quien but I'm still in denial after years) o si quiero salir d la ciudad ?? por que siempre digo que quiero pero estoy medio pendeja no aguantaría idk lo único que se es que no quiero tener hijos y más vale sigas pensando eso or I'll **** myself. espero al menos t siga gustando skz es lo único bueno que tienes ahora, o al menos acabarás la carrera por que como van las cosas i don't think I'll happen. idk solo espero resultará bn y no trabajes en mcdonalds (nothing wrong with that I just can't imagine dealing with that). y para que t ubiques maso cuando estoy escribiendo esto: estas escribiendo tu dialogo de la ppt d polka, savage d aespa salio hace días y en 2 semanas es la final d girls planet 999, espero ya dejaras tu época cacapoper pero viendo como vamos mepa que si, namas que sigue amando minho para toda la vida, el único requisito. BTW ESPERO TUVIERAN NOVIO NOVIA PUBLICA OR ILL **** MYSELF, o cualquiera que stanees idc solo quiero vivir eso. Pero bno se supone que vas a tener 24 and I hope you're not single anymore 🥴 at least 2 year relationships so u better get pretty or a personality idk. I hope mentally u r okay :/ it's been really hard lately I barely sleep and I'm really anxious plus lonely lol i miss fany and natalia but idk I regret that thing with fany and I still think we should have listen to what I was saying and don't done that but idk we did it and we're here ig I hope ur not lonely and a bit happy and I OF COURSE HOPE YOURE NOT DEAD OK u better live unless u have a ******** life, that's ok I'll forgive u. im sorry if this is long but uni and home problems have been so *&?&^ and ig you're the only one that will really understand. I don't feel like myself at all, like, days don't feel real and because of that i mostly can't remember anything, I feel like I'm dreaming and I repeat the same day over and over again, I don't remember anything of this year, is blank and it feels really weird, I haven't had a single happy memory for a long time, literally the happiest I've been this year is (is sad that I have to think about it and can't recall anything) so yea basically nothing lol ig skz makes me happy but it isn't the same, daniela makes me happy but I still like something is missing, I miss when i was happy even though I don't remember ever being completely happy, all during kinder and primaria I was kinda bullied lol at first in the new primaria I felt soooo lonely, and at the end I felt that I didn't fit in even though I had friends, in secundaria lol that affected me so bad, mom problems were at it highest plus being told I was annoying all the time and feeling like my interests were horrible aver though they were but still lol all of the first semester of cbtis I suffered a lot, I still remember I had to walk home having a panic attack, I luckily didn't die there lol i literally couldn't see and felt so *;?&% it was horrible, I sat on the floor and everything lmaoo it was just so sad, then I got friends but I was kinda scared of them and well u know how everything turned out, but ok I'm gonna go, I got sadder lmao please take care of urself and ur gf lol I hope u got a gf but have a good life, please have a good life