A letter from Oct 8th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, My relationships in the past (and I appreciate God for this) have not been the worst but I seem to have so much placed in for convenience's sake without really factoring in what I am looking for. AGAIN, all subject to God's Will, here's my prayer, from a 22 year old to the one who writes my story;I need a man who loves and pursues Jesus more than anything. I know how far off my life and purpose would be without God and I can't afford someone who doesn't do the same. I need a man who can lead the family,as it's head and as a priest. I need a man looking for a partnership, someone who I can lean on, even as I offer support. I need a man who can show my children ( both girls and boys) that love can be expressed and that a man can be a good steward. One to show discipline but take them out on dates. I want a man I can cook in the kitchen with, who doesn't mind changing diapers (I still live in a space where partiachy is the order of the day). I believe it's possible to be masculine and still help out. I need a man who can give me his full attention when we need to discuss something, and be patient enough to work it through with me. I want a handsome man, taller than I am (not too tall though, between half a foot and a foot taller,,,6'5 is a far stretch plus I've tried dating a shorter guy who I really enjoyed having a chat with but it was hard ..... the attraction just wasn't there and you know it) . I need a man with a job( a way to make money)and something he is passionate about, that makes him come alive and burn with passion and zeal. He needs that fulfilment, because I can't be that for him.I need an intelligent man, someone capable of working through issues with me, someone who thrills me with the type of discussions we have, someone who has no problem being a part of the world God has called me into and vice versa. I need a man who is sober minded, doesn't mind a good laugh but is also warm around people, someone intuitive who can help me identify things within and around myself I don't always see. I need a man who wants to stay pure till marriage, regardless of whether they have a past or not. I want a man with no children; I can't afford baby mama drama. I want a man who hasn't been married before. I need a man who understands the purpose God has called me to and who is willing to support that. I need a man who enjoys travel, (imma do ALOT of it). I need a man who will respect my parents and have a close, son- like relationship with them. I need a friend, a friendship that stands through our tough times and arguements. Someone who is open to friendship with my friends.I want a man who will take me out to dinner, buy me flowers and slow dance with me ever so often. I need a man who prays and fasts and is a priest of the home. I want a man with a family that stands together, not rooted in Ill will and self-destructiveness. I need a man committed to me,to our family and to seeing our family grow. I need a man who believes in the balance between saving, investments and investing in one's self ( making memories). I need a man who can speak English ( duh... like Germans are cool but let's be real, I can't possibly learn a language that fast). I need a man I can grow with. I want a man who doesn't mind opening the door for me and who kisses me goodmorning and goodnight every day in our married life together. I need a man who loves me, and cares and is patient. I want a man who, for as long as it is reasonable and the resources are present, to arrange yearly trips with the family to different parts of the world. I want my kids to be exposed from a very young age, be global citizens of sorts. I want a man who believes in building a family culture and values from early on, and will work with me to train and teach our kids. A man proud of his family. I want a man who believes in hygiene, being neat, a clean home and looking put together in public.