A letter from Oct 7th, 2021

Dear Future Me, Hey,how are you doing? I hope you get this letter,since we've stopped being suicidal.funny isn't that oyasumi punpun really gives us motivation to keep moving forward and the realization that we encountered,this is the night that I finish reading it by the way.I realize that committing suicide is so dumb all I think about is how my family is so annoying or I don't have any friends to talk to about or thinking about unnecessary things that doesn't even matter or escaping to reality.since we're past that,I hope you're getting better now I really wanted to know what your interest in moving forward,so moving on since I'm new to this(moving on) I'm going to take some time to heal myself I wanted to try new things that took my interest because you know how it goes I pretty much wasted all my talents.by the time you read this letter I'm sure you've matured now since you're going to be 20 years old.for now I wanted to be better than I ever was,I want to believe on what's right I won't take sides though,but since I'm on a verge on changing I won't trust anyone for the time being since I was badly wounded,I'm facing my fears so that I can move forward then I'm going to take things slow and I'm still unmotivated for what I'm going to do with my life though since you're reading this I'm thinking "What's my future self going to think about this letter?" I would really thought that I'm being dramatic af.this night is going to be a memorable memory cuz I've experienced a very nostalgic sense here.you remember when you were at the old house and our mother went to grab something in the forest and it was very dark so you look up to the sky and you see a lot of stars and you sense sone good feeling.since we were a kid we've always encounter this nostalgic sense it's like a gift that when We feel lonely we remember something in the past that you can sense in the present, haha I feel so happy right now I defeated depression and I'm so glad that had to learn from it. What your dealing right now is just an obstacle and once you're done have a greeeeat satisfaction and reward yourself.good luck on your adventure and no matter what everyone thinks your still the person that I grew up with you're strong willed person after all. I want you to be happy too so enjoy everything since happiness just happens in a brief of time so enjoy it while it lasted.good night and take care