A letter from Oct 7th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, (It's October 7, 2021 when I wrote this and this will be sent by you after 5 years.) You'll survive, somehow you always do. No matter what is happening to you, always believe that you'll make it and you'll survive. Are you happy right now? Mahal mo pa ba si Shin or may bago ka nang mahal? In a relationship ka na ba or broken nanaman? Sumusweldo ka na ba? Nakakabili ka na ba ng mga bagay at pagkain na gusto mo? Nakamit mo na ba 'yung bagay na gusto mong makamit 5 years ago? Stable na ba ang mental health mo? Sobrang dami kong tanong sa'yo kasi sobrang dami rin ng ineexpect ko. I hope na masaya ka and nagagawa mo na mga gusto mong gawin. I hope na healthy ka and kung hindi man, let's claim na magiging healthy ka. God is always with us. I hope na you're happy with what you have and what you are. Sana habang binabasa mo 'to ay mapapangiti ka at mapapasabi na "Yes. I'm happy with who I am." I want the best for you. Mahal na mahal kita. And if hindi mo pa masyadong nakakamit mga gusto mong makamit, please don't lose hope. Isipin mo, 5 years ago na 'to. Naka survive ka. Nasurvive mo 'yung 5 years and masusurvive mo lahat ng 5 years. I know you can do it. You've grown a lot, huh? You've became stronger and more matured. If walang nagsasabi sa'yo nito, ako ang magsasabi. I'm so proud of you. You deserve everything good. If ever man na malungkot ka ngayon, isipin mo lahat ng pinagdaanan mo. Ang dami mo nang pinagdaanan at nalampasan at kahit mabibigat ang mga 'yon, you've managed to be strong and nakasurvive ka. I think that's worth smiling for. I know na mabubuhay ka nang matagal, I just know. Sure ako. And mapapatunayan mo na hindi lahat ng may mabubuting puso ay hindi agad kinukuha. You're too kind to the point na hahayaan ka ng universe na mamuhay nang matagal sa mundong 'to. You know wny? This world is full of cruelty and ugly society, the world needs someone like you. The world needs someone as precious as you. And hindi ipagkakait sa'yo ng universe ang mundo kasi alam niya rin na you need this world, this cruel world that hurts you but you still love, this cruel world that breaks you but you still cherish, this cruel world that turn its back on you but you still embrace. Because you know that no matter how cruel the world is, it's still your home. And you know that you need to feel pain to prove to yourself that you're alive, and living in this world makes you feel alive. You need to break to heal, you need to fall to rise, and you need to get hurt to feel. Hindi ipagdadamot sa'yo ng Universe at ng Panginoon ang pinakahiling mo dahil sa araw araw na buhay mo, wala kang ibang ginawa kundi harapin at labanan ang hirap na dulo't sa'yo ng mundong ito. Hindi ipagkakait sa'yo ang mundong dinudurog ka ngunit iyo pa ring tinuturing na tahanan. Mahirap masaktan pero masarap mabuhay. At bilib na bilib ako sa'yo dahil handa kang harapin lahat ng hamon maramdaman lang na ika'y nabubuhay at mabubuhay pa. — Your 5 years ago self.