A letter from Oct 4th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi, self! Its tomorrow. Uhh, don't be cringe. May be this message can cheer myself up to the future. Hi, future self! I'm irritated right now, because of the cats that is pooping in our bedroom. Andito ako nakaupo sa may sahig ng sala, nag memessage sa sarili ko kasi gusto ko. Si loraine kumakain ng baboy na niluto ni papa kagabi. May aso kami si sydney, choleng at brown. May pusa din, si sur yeon, yoon hee, at si mingkay. 18 years old pa lang ako ngayon. So ayun, pag nabasa mo 'to, don't cry kasi pangit ka umiyak. Oh yeah I guess i didn't love myself enough this days. I've been worst to myself and can't even make decisions on my own. I'm always lowering my self confidence and didn't trust myself. I have so many flaws and imperfections, and I hope 5 years from now I overcome all of my weaknesses and removed those toxic traits from me. I've been trying and working on myself. I have passed those struggles and I exceeded so you have too. I've passed through all of that suicidal thoughts and have to continue for myself and my loved ones! I think I have so many responsibilities now, I don't want to get old again, but now I have reasons to keep going. I'm looking forward for this message for my future self. I'm curious what's my reaction when I read this. Btw, what course did you take and pursue, huh? Are you a doctor or nurse now? Or a flight attendant? Are you in a medical field now or in tourism? Are you enjoying it? I know whatever course it is, it's always hard but know that one important thing. You should start enjoying your life now. I'm struggling now, but I know and I hope that you're still that happy you after a long run. I can say that I'm not happy now, so you should be happy after so many years of struggling. Yeah it is required. Always remember, you should always trust yourself and boost your confidence up. Failing is part of success. And every challenges there's always happiness. Crying is part of life, so its okay to cry. You shouldn't lower your standards and never settle for less. Don't chase anyone, they should be the one that is chasing you. Wait for a right time; and please stop palpitating when you're going to walk pass or talk i front of so many people. We are always doing are best, and that's enough. Be a successful happy person and don't forget to love and take care of yourself before everyone and anyone else. You have all of your loved ones around you, always. You should take care of your parents and siblings too. They should be happy too, and living their happy life with you. Always be happy and confident. Don't regrets the things that makes you smile and happy. 500 words for my future self.