A letter from Oct 2nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so proud of you at how far you have come in the last 10 years. From where you were at the age of 20. Having a baby, in an unhealthy relationship that was abusive, to unable to finish school because your priorities weren’t straight like you thought. To a lot of partying and living. You made a lot of great memories but hid a lot of pain. Right before turning 30 you wanted a healthier version of you. You took your mental health serious and put in work for yourself. Continuous therapy, dealing with your depression/anxiety, letting go of friendships & relationships that are not serving you. Creating an atmosphere that is healthy for you and your babies. Being more present for your babies. For your 30’s you have set the Intentions of peace, love, and happiness. To be a better version of yourself. You have left a relationship, which has been painful, but to make the Intensions you set for yourself to be true. You have realized life is too short to be Unhappy. & all through your 20’s you were Unhappy. The best version and happiest version of yourself will reflect in your boys. They too will be the best versions of themselves. I hope you have kept your goals in vision and keep knocking each one off of your list. Because you are capable of anything you set your mind too. You are strong, resilient, admirable, a leader, a loving mother, and a wonderful friend. Hold on to the people who fill up your cup when needed and don’t forget to keep filling theirs up as well. 💜 Love always, Me. You have grown so much from 20 until 30. Keep growing & glowing!

Epilogue

over 3 years later

Dear Me,

I need you to pause for a moment and really take in how far you’ve come because I know you don’t give yourself enough credit.

Life didn’t get...

Ohdep laycmglai wdulo iasere ti noec klie uyo. In evaihre in c,atf yanm awy,s it gto. Iosc,nfuon dolu tbekra,ahre sskbeca,t vyo’ue mots ihewgt iercdar dnik d’ont out klat nad het ttha poeelp fo ubota ienmoltoa. Rea dan ouy yte itlls rehe. Ynrtig stlli. Stlli onhgiosc wehn ti nvee rshut bt,eret.
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Ilef ni thsi sea,ry ievf uletuiabf gohrtbu aentrho rlwod teh uoy into tspa. A wno of era rhtee trmeoh uyo. To heret aineugdc kolo oyu t,seyfa tletil woh e,lov orf nda amushn. Some viigng elazrie ouy mero ouy ohw petiesd ouy meth flee days, are nath.
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Ebiieclnrd idd - uyo siemgntho uyo augddraet. Sinhfdei cone uyo tfel issbmilepo ni 022,5 tahw. Ohw ni uoy ahd of o?ag uolwd wea of easyr to eb thta etvyhngeir uoy otsp ioervsn onw seh.
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Ni eevn to igana nda ccoieh epdllu hrtae dema ahs a your eesdtt nda sha tfhor eplyd,e levae niseitorplah ouy hatt uyo kacb het tguhho bnee. Atht wsneseka a awt’sn. Ahtt a saw etsnghrt. Hgtrwo ttha was. That ti ergfrtiiyn and fuero,syl eevn ouy nrnatucie telf wsa wnhe ihonscog.
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Tlos now i rithg wkon eelf yuo.
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Nda you lkei sa diks eosrvin ufsolyer up onkw i e’yuor ruoy ebts ahe,yv oelatdsi, fo eth for eelf tno sohnwig. Reg-tovihn payp,h wkno ocdlu i uoldc nphepa ustj up uyo lefe wheo,l nhlgiae awke swhi atth erfe dan adn uoy.
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Tshi tno a’htts oksrw utb woh. Nad ahtt iafignl uroe’y odns’et mane.
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Bkac ta rae otn oyu reusqa noe.
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Owh has oeosenm wno you ear ltoos. Seawnersa. Pneexriece. Iobaeudrsn. Enve pysu—dto ,odc by uyro if ae,monyr aiagn nexty,ia ont eceozirgn dtcollnero rgtih wno royu ear rouy hetm oyu ibydlln biegn yrou luod isderne,sop eelf hety.
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Aielnhg gahtsirt neil a is nto. Ysmes its’. Spolo it. Suesap ti. Strasetr it. But eodnun ’ouvey leik eelsf vety,hneigr uoy emsmtsoei venat’h it nda.
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Ouy htat ileertnsi osgn,rt tbaou noamw oetwr rae noec yuo illst.
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Naht oerm ahtt r’eouy claa,ulyt onw.
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Ebcueas eslef dan lslti igngo awth lfla nwo yuo okwn raatp ilek to kpee it.
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Iuvrasvl ,rhtut a uyro bigdlureni oyu ear not file mrof epalc fo.
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Ot uyor odwlale take rea imet yuo.
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Eelf eht to you meit sad ames at era pelufoh oalewld nda.
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Aer it ety to dollaew freudig lal ouy otu ont heav.
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I:hts hwta tematrs si.
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Uoy nriygt are.
Hongsoci yuo ettrbe rae.
Reeh aer you slitl.
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Of tath be si duorp nda gntmisoeh ot.
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Fo dsik a rvsnoie ceptfre ouy dene ’odtn rouy.
Dnee etyh lrae a oen.
Lgnaehi a eon.
One a ongwirg.
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Xtyacel who is ttha ouy nad are.
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Eekp nggio.
Teh teiqu aysd no enve.
Ayveh no eth neev dasy.
Efle liek vnee henw osspgrre uyo ruoe’y otn nakgim.
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Uyo ecesaub aer.
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Tntrisag fo sleyrouf paoicnmsos fele ni humc eon ouy ndoarve— os wlil kabc ht-e will ouy eon ayd, stgitin ta pdeir unnon,wk roevsni oolk tshi hte adn.
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Ouy tlos otn ear.
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Imdeld of you ni are inbomceg eth.
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Iwht ,love.
💜 em.

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