A letter from Oct 1st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Today is October 1, 2021, but the feelings I have were still the same as what I have since when I was 8 years old. ( not sure). I feel so mentally drained for almost a year and I just it just now, I should not overcome this but end this for good. She brought me here, given me the dreams I have now and slowly achieving but she never adores anything of it, not until other notice it. This is not sad it's more than that it's like having the same nightmares again and again. I am so devastated that I believe I did everything, I did my best everyone knows it but not her. Soo ******* hurt that it's ok not to be noticed by her but she always makes it so unfair and slaps me with her actions. I just can't help it I've been crying quietly, having an emotional breakdown without any sound. Sobrang bigat an kailngan kong isigaw pero hindi pwede . I want and I will be successful as **** with huge financial freedom and love. That's all I want but the most out of it is that she ask for forgiveness. Hope this year she made it, hope you're ok, and I know you'll have your dreams come true and happiness will come. Iloveyou -bonj