A letter from Sep 25th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, it's Saturday and I'm all up since last night doing nothing. Actually you want to sleep early but you can't sleep so you keep doing fake scenarios in your head and then your planning to go for a walk and you saw that the time is really close to your set alarm time that's why you just wait for your alarm to ring HAHAHHA and then you drink a coffee and your ready to go for your morning walk and watch the sunrise then it rained HAHAHA so you kept waiting and waiting then it's already 5am I guess the rain never calm so you get to your studies then the ink of your pen splash into your hand without you even noticing and then you're complaining what is the reason why we need to understand math why can't math solve his problem by himself HAHHAH and then after that math drama you open your Pinterest app just to search for physics notes even tho in your grade your still not on the physics topics yet but you copy some random notes because it looks aesthetic HAHAHAH and then you post some dumb stuff on your IG story like "trying to be aesthetic but failed" and you post one of your drawings HAHAHA and now you're about to work out but you open your Gmail and then this notif pop up so now you're writing this and idk what the heck are you thinking HAHHAHA but you really want to improve right,to be productive I hope you can do that in whole five years from now HAHHAHA 5 years from now I'm 19 I want you to know that whatever happens don't give up on your dreams. I know it's hard but you can do it.. just keep reaching your dreams grab all the opportunities that is on your way don't let opportunities passed you again because your scared and your not confident. Self you don't need to be perfect because no one is perfect,yes you saw someone on IG and think they're are so gorgeous and have all that good stuff,you know what, they have an insecurities too,every person on this planet earth living has one big insecurities.. you're wishing to have that person's physical features while other people is wishing to have features you have, I want you to learn to stop chasing perfection, because in improving yourself and mindset and on loving yourself you'll learn what perfection actually looks like. And one thing please stop pleasing people to stay you have gone through a lot you're always making yourself a victim You're always making yourself looks pity. Enough is enough self don't be afraid to walk alone because in your journey to become that person you wanted you'll learn a lot and realize things. Not everyone will stay, everyone leaves when they're starts walking on their own paths that is different from yours. Please love yourself because in the end it's you and yourself only, treat yourself the way you want to be treated because not everyone will treat you right and not everyone will treat you like what you've imagine. Be confident.. when you read this I want you to have that courage that confidence that inspiration that your 14 years old self who doesn't have because she's afraid. Don't be afraid to be yourself don't be afraid on speaking up don't be afraid to defend yourself on manipulation of other,the judgement of other. You're living your life. You are the main characters on your own story so you decide but don't forget to follow some advice because it'll help you a lot. That's all and btw in your teenage years I want you to enjoy it but with no romance, smoking and drinking involve. Because I want you to be that person you want,I want you to be happy, I want you to prioritize yourself before others.. enjoy your teenage to the fullest, spend your teenage the way you wanted,but also put boundaries and know your limitations. Hope you're happy walking on your journey.. I hope you don't get cringe while reading this in the future. I know you're watching me r'n but through memories,hope this memory of yours won't fade. It's a long way,a long journey so we won't waste time. Let out journey began starting now ^_^