A letter from Sep 19th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hiloo future Me ! I'm here again to answer some questions that I saw on TikTok ! These questions have been stucked on my notes for a days cuz I didn't feel like doing these for the past few days so...here ya go ! what would make you happier? -SURPRISES! And gifts ! A piece of hamburger ! And new clothes . what do you do when you're bored? - I just talk to myself , by just talking to myself it motivate me ! I talk about my future and my goals and the things that I wanna do ! What would you call this year if you had to give it and , are you anyone's favorite person? -“ A year of realization . ” *Idk how to answer that one cuz I got no friends like frfr even online friends I got none :) Do you miss the old you? -Yes But No. I am still the younger me whose very emotional and is afraid to try new things. Yes cuz I am not as inocent as I was. No cuz my childhood was very traumatic. do you think they think about you too? - "friends" I don't think they do . I really miss my elementary classmate, like bru they are all my best friend . It just really makes me sad that we had to Separate to enter to our new paths. I was in 4th grade when I transferred then they become my BEST FRIENDS , six grade when we need to separate and I didn't even realize it ! I had to move in Manila and most ot them stayed in our school ( I Heard that all of my elem classmates don't act like they become friends anymore, they make new friends, become strangers again ) ( I always stalk their socials just to make sure their doing good.Most of them had really become matured , had their first bf/gf) , and now we're in 10th grade . Wow its been 4 yrs. if you could go back in time, what would you tell yourself from 5 years ago? - " Take pictures" cuz I didn't cuz I hate seeing my face :) I really regret it , whenever we had group selfies I always hide cuz I don't wanna see my face. Who do you think knows you the best out of everyone you’ve met so far? - in real life ? That would be my SISTER - online ? No one cuz they only last for a week, I really feel bad for them for not knowing who I am , like boi you lose . My life's very interesting! My personality ! Are you actually fine after saying you're fine? - In my opinion we've all lied saying the word "I'm fine" when you think of love, who or what comes to mind? - "Confusing" I am scared to fall in love, what if the person I married was not the one , what if the person who I'm married with cheated on me ? Or wants to **** me like what happened to Watts family? Ever since I watched this documentary I never believe in Love anymore ( what If he ended ******* me ? What if we ended getting divorce? ) No we're meant for each other dont do stupid things. what's the most painful thing you've ever been told? - "Bobo " , "Nagpapaka tangahan Kaba o Tanga ka lang talaga ?" "Your nose is too flat and big" your arms are so fluppy" a I can't remember the rest. If you were someone else, would you wanna be friends with yourself? why or why not - YES! OFC ! I am so cool and hot asf! And really have a high ambition . I would literally date my self if I were a boy ! do you like your school? - Ofc Not . I want to study in America! American school are the best for teenager's like me! It's every teenager's dreams ! And my dream ofc ! What are some of the things you remember that you wish you could forget? - "My brother ******** harassed me" when I was in first grade, every afternoon my father always want me to sleep cuz that's what every kids needs to do . Then every afternoon my brother comes home from school ( I think he was in 7th grade that time) but since I am really afraid to sleep alone and we only have 1 room so me and my brother sleep together in 1 room every afternoon, then the only thing I remembered was he's on top of me he's doing the most disgusting thing ( I have no idea what he was doing) but we still have our clothes on. And I remember one time he forced me to watch a two both naked person doing the most disgusting thing . Gawd I ******* hate my brother, I don't wanna open up this to someone ,and to these days none of my family member knows this and I just really hope my brother won't remember this anymore. I was 14 yrs old when I realized what he did was very wrong and very traumatic , I don't wanna remember this anymore but, I think its gonna be my forever worse memories . I don't know how many times he did that to me. By just thinking of what he did to me it makes me hate my body, I wish I never had a brother. Dang I don't wanna cry anymore Why do you love people that hurt you? - I don't do you wish you did things differently? - yes what is the reason you’re still alive/not giving up? - "My goals" have you ever lost yourself trying to make everyone else happy? - No Do you believe in "right person wrong time" ? - For some people "YES" when was the last time you cried? - JUST RIGHT AFTER I WROTE THE SIX QUESTION BEFORE THIS ONE. How often do you think of them? - Like who ? Like I don't have anyone to think of everyday. You have the ability to erase only one thing from existence. What would you erase? - I have ? Wow If you died today, how do you think you would be remembered? - " being the most hottest person that ever existed in this world" How is your relationship with your parent(s)? - Not good do u wish you never would've met them? - WHO ? What’s your purpose in the world? - "TO GET MY GOALS " I FINALLY KNOW HOW TO ANSWER THIS ONE !!! YAHH Do you wish you could travel back to a time before the internet? - F YESS !! ever since internet created everything starts to get messed up :) Aight that's all for today, I'm gonna do the other one tomorrow? Idk But wait ! I just got my first purchase in shoppe! The t shirt that I really want ! Yeahhh it took me 6 days to ask my father for a money , actually I already had a lil bit amount of money its just its not enough to pay for the t shirt ! I'm going to sent it for 5 years cuz you're gonna 21 !! I hope you're doing good! And oh WAIT DO NOT GIVE UP!!! WE'RE GONNA BE A BILLIONAIRE! WE NEED TO FIGHT OKAY ? YOU'RE GOING TO DO IT ! YOU GOT MY SUPPORT ! YOU CAN DO IT ! WAIT!! DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND ? 😩 PLS TELL ME CUZ NA ... IS HE THE GUY ON OUR DREAM ? IS HE TALL ? BROWN FLUPPY HAIR ? NVM AIGHT IM GOING TO WATCH TIKTOKS NOW CUZ I'VE BEEN TYPING HERE FOR ABOUT 1 HOUR AND A HALF :) AND OH I AM CURRENTLY LISTENING TO THE NEIGHBORHOOD- the beach instrumental. September 19 2021 11:22 pm "YOU'RE A GOOD PERSON" BE HAPPY !! I LOVE YOU MIEN !!! WE CAN DO IT !!! WE'RE GOING TO BE A BILLIONAIRE!!!