A letter from Sep 14th, 2021

Peaceful right?

hello im writing this instead of my school work hey mazo, this is rlly embarrasing but hey, its mazo, yk, you. i wonder if you still like the name mazo? your attempt failed, obviously, how would i be writing this? but uh you know, u ghosted everyone from tarlac and wanted to start a new life, but that kinda failed. are you still into chels? have you found someone else? maybe, someone that actually likes you? youre an idiot, you know, clinging onto someone even tho it hurts u a shit ton, but thats how u are, u like to harm urself. tbh i think i already sent a letter like months ago but so much shit has happened then so here we are. god, i dont know what to say? are you still in pampanga? dont tell me you went back to tarlac did you ever get diagnosed? if yes, wtf is wrong with you? if ill be honest, i feel as though u have like adhd or something, ur obviously depressed and u obviously have alotta anxiety going on. are you in therapy? you stopped recently cuz u weren't ready, are you ready now? hows kuya? mommy? have you stopped calling mommy mommy? its weird how whenever i send a message to future me i always mention kuya, when he probably doesnt give a living shit about me did your phone break? i hope not, its a good phone did you ever get a good pc? did you ever get the courage to ask for one? do you think you deserve it? i really want one rn but i gotta like pump up my grades first before asking for stuff, cuz, you know, thats just how your brain thinks have you edited any of the vids youve filmed? was it hard? are you proud? what are your interests? rn your trying to do art but got huge art block cuz u forced urself to do art for art club audition, its on friday, did u ever actuaally audition? or get in the club? youre also into mcyt, i wonder if you still are, and i wonder if your embarrased that you did. im into anime i guess? i watch it and enjoy it but not like, a fan that looks for art everyday or some shit. i wanna make music tbh, u wanna do alotta things, but u cant. this is gonna be a real annoying question cuz i know u hate this but grades? how much did you try? and how much did you cry? lol prolly alot how about ur current friends? rn its poi, chels, and akum, suprisingly. i dont really want friends but im forced to. did you get attached to your maths teacher? right now you really does not want a father figure rn ive been avoiding it with all my might. talking about father figure, how are the male figures in ur life? again, u rn doesnt want them, mostly just cuz you dont want to get attached TALKING ABOUT ATTACHED, how r ur attachment issues lol, rn ur "training" ur attachment issues, like, wtf does that mean (idk either) i wanna be optimistic and ask you how far you've gone but, i honestly think you havent budged at all, look at you, your procrastinating by sending future you a letter because what? the computer assignment is hard? wtf happened to gifted you mazo? sorry for the rant there favorite artists and song? rn u listen to cavetown, mitski, wilbur, glass animals, bo burnham, rex orange county, lovejoy, lemon demon, and artic monkeys. fav song is uhhhhhhhhhh i cant pick so most played song is probably heat waves lol. ( funny how you played heatwaves on loop 60 times a day as a joke months ago but now associate urself w the song ) how many songs has lovejoy released? any collabs? rn they have sex sells, cause for concern, taunt, and one day. ur fav is prolly one day out of the 4 cuz u memorized it already before it came out. play any instruments? i assume no, you wanna make songs but suck at instruments, why cant you get urself into it? idk either. pls dont tell me u made friends from school, this one girl is messaging you, prolly wants to be ur friend, ur better than this cmon any school clubs? i think im just gonna send shitty art to my art club audition cuz, what will mom do abt it when i get rejected? nothing. how rich are you? do u have a job or something? rn you only have money from allowance, did that even ever continue? do you got good clothes now? rn just a bit, not enough for 3 days tho me thinks how could i forget, covid? what happened? i rlly am happy that there will be vaccines soon for minors but i really do not want to do face to face, ur social anxiety is bad anybody die? idk just curious did you ever get rid of the bad habits? or trying to? are you mentally alot better now? hope you are big man. haha. i just called myself big man big man. hah how r u n chels? rn ur really scared of pushing her away because you tend to push away people you like for a long time because of, idk, annoying them? accidentally texting them a long message at 4am? oh yea hows ur sleep schedule lol, rn its ok but u had a breakdown on sunday cuz u couldnt sleep and u had to wake up early for school, it suprisingly worked and you passed out in no time. do you have a mic? dunno why ur so obsessed with having a good mic i know u hate topics abt ur bday but, what happened? did anything happen? do you still believe in love? rn its very much 50/50, well, maybe less than fifty. did ate zani and mom ever break up??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? idk just curious did u ever cosplay lol, or still too broke? or just dont wanna? rn u are a lesbian and genderfluid, how bout now? or like, then, or, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN did u ever come out to mom as genderfluid, or kuya? moms a transphobe lol i dont feel comfy coming out to her rn fav color? red rn heh im running out of questions, so maybe this is it for now, no i wont do my school work, r u crazy? one last question tho, i always ask this, hope the answer is yes, but, are you happy? anyways, hope your well and okay. signed, mazo - September 14, 2021 - 4:29pm

Epilogue

about 19 hours later

hello!!!!!!!!! it's funny cause I'm ALSO writing this instead of doing my school work..... some things never change I guess LMAO

hello mazo!!!!!!!! it's mazo, I still really like the...

Amzo yes enam.
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E,m irngwti ihts tpesamtt setn etrlet oerm eetrh rwee oeuy'v olt ftare a. Onne ldag phyap twen i'm i'm hhgrotu asy to whit ehmt :) it atth of.
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Am i in pgaapanm esy,. Ruoy atalcr toslma vtiis hlscoo im bakc nfsredi ktep i ubt old dan ewnt arctrgnastiiopn ot to.
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Osissen repthay ubt i at to dposept eht oto twne glno dn2 i ao,g otn. I kthin rfo ylarel me payehtr ni'st.
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Llca i myomm btu tsmoly ometsmeis mi aer efin :) isltl dna mi ayku i clla her piulbc in her. Thta sduolh uyak a vgei he aellry dose yuo, otabu uoy stih tngikhin tndseo' sotp. Btuoa he ot hmi nda yend that tod'n ,oot it he vleo and pnoe enve in o,yu try vleos proyeprl uyo tou owhs oyu sjut !!!!!w!!!!!o!!!!n!k!! he you odte'sn raecs the.
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Gedars euo'vy on tse rendeal to bkac aylrle tsju royu. Hghi sn'eo gocnifr srceo tin's a ebst teh woh no yruo etflo-hswr aebsd you to yuo do nda gte on. Onveryee ouy vosel dgersrasel. :).
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I'm my h'es ssim i oto tidn'd mcuh lerlay ?echerta ond't loo,c maht tceaadht egt olaughth to. . . . Y'aev hte rhgti efil aeml ni ntocnet royu eral ifgure nad aveh yruo ugrfsie ouy wthi rftahe otg d: oueyr' own.
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Olsa srweo thb usjt tbu malo ywrr,o it tub thtaaemcnt genott ?ebertt our eetrh dno't i thav'ne yna hmuc dtdin' tn'do ti's seissu it ypa to saol tge dinm.
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Mepisicists you sas. Llwe so gonid now so pu tghri oyu'er 😭 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 litlaylre ru'yoe gonnynia du,ed suht.
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Olma aoky ist' i ateudsrdnn.
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Nme lilbie komsnye arctic veste ahs i msar obunr slao dan and jufi yuymm gstho b kdi turts uitfoevra dna eehehehheh iacbs sh'rete eeebeee be won nad ophe ahey ihelsi ym dan iodde aisstrt nrbou dna vfieuraot erx gtihr yb v)'(lie dan ryikc nda oogd ngso ot aomrj 'i adn nda mnemie ueacs aycl dan but nda dan oarndu a ymnoomgtre onager adn dan mmmmmm of oveljoy or'eyu kaez udh ot as.
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Wen i tknhi slbuam??? hciwh yoelovj si lllooolloooooooooooooollollolollooolcolooooooooolloooooooooooll ealeesrd 2 osme aslo rmeo sah sloso. Meti oomaaloa hto yda si neo oury lal palarbbyo ltsil rfitvoeua.
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Nr hwy stbe eamn si't it ryuo uniagrg tihw woradc sjtu swa lief ru'eoy ym am iknda hwahhahaahha yrsro oot tbhciy uyo'er antrdudsen utjs mdea negbi dan a oyb tetill fo osttiianu the iodiecns i sfdinre yoka i glir kayo lmfsye bctih i.
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Wndate ot incaolmpostci jnio penpahed tub imcsu satro dan i olam utb.
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Evah a ilke ruoy yuo ptusid etfl lrig anme mic 006 cuase oyu to ughbot. . . . Ravdeyye 'nodt is aclonlawe 100 jbo tam ddddadn ahve a rn.
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Semi veha i shotcle omai enetdc rn.
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!!!!!!d!v!!!o!!!!!!!c!!!i!! igngo on yuo f2f knwo siltl and an tsmo sti' rae enaibelvti eopr solscho.
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Ddei oen tops so yuo ith no iptsmieiscs igben aonng 'mi.
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Dna 'ntod ,,omer eyrv i wnko gnettig won ird gte bda an!!m!!!!!!!!! e,tsta ibg eew'r ynirgt ajrom idr of tgo sa atnlem of thsabi to ewer; ereth fo i ew htirg !!!dd!!!!!!!!!i!!. . . Npykiac utb hillc nweh sceom im' meti teh. . . . Ikhnt saw ebtrte tub how i uhcm i mi' eoberf nhta.
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'euory hs'es dan are ysgu hppay dan yuo uoy eh'ss and deirnsf lhecs ni and rae !!o!!do!1!g!!!!! uea hppya.
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Akyo rfo oayk but ritgh ma2 t'is godo but sit' nwo nseaor but.
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Mci as no eoph 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ukfngic yuo kwosr ekli d,ais tsju it lt'se a snept 2k i. Eb my stal r)wsta llt'i (spl.
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Sepsid clseaassmt rmneids n'dto i me uto erebmrme i htna edpnpaeh eothr ym nsoo ihhwc hyirbatd rlaley iptocs rgdeeet nad csaue ahirdtyb tgo i uofnd akyo me ti's asw it my heta ym obuat waht lleray tbuutuu.
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D'tno ni i tuaob u!c!h!m! do'nt 'its i eevblei evol ,ovle i lyelra ni ahtt ti otn ro inkth ibeelve.
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Heay tho 'eehyrt got eat lsoec aniz lcals ayok im nda hete'yv aer maoaaoaoaloo poer akoy.
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Vrnee ubhotg desu gha yuo fogoy a mdan hten ti omfr giw hepsoep hah. Eerht wig sutj see cndhtouue if nrtu eht il'l i noadur tsngiti mola.
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Dna mi' oaeacr tobh anslbei i grndee rof eth xyiauetsl in loleh ma adn utmrecps nad ugedlfnredi leuealnd,b. Fuoarxl ntghi a if or ilficsapelyc ah'tts cxuealf omla or.
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My htme 'tnod i ealyrl fo meco uto i ot any mmmm obtau ertcdiyl, dernge t!o eden the 'ehatvn elef.
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Aer bsdae ew rf os edr uoifrteva lislt corlo.
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I hw but ddi dtno' eovl bicth d'lotcun you yruo sfut dei rftae wnko hte u tglui nasdt ko uyo isth rwgtnii akoy.
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A--m ysa im' ggniiruf nnoga ti lla i uto ): s'htta.
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Ozma akyo ere'w. Wle'l okay eb.
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S,niegd.
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