A letter from Sep 9th, 2021

Hi Lenora, I really hope you're at the point in life where you can be called Lenora without flinching. This is the third week of classes in fall 2021. tonight I am going to Potbelly's with Alice, Bailey, Katie, and Emily, where Alice's Ex, CJ, has a table for his birthday. I am genuinely enjoying my life right now-- I'm taking 150 mg of Wellbutrin and I'm missing Becky like crazy (I think I have an eating disorder and a marijuana addiction so that is FUN). I think right now I'm getting to the point where I'm ready to be in a relationship again, but I'd like to try it with a girl this time but I'm so scared LMFAO. I'm living in the alpha gam house, which is definitely a lot. It's very overstimulating and I do like being that involved but it's a hard transition to be completely honest. Gameday last Saturday was fun! I went to Pi Lam w Mackenzie and Madi, then fell into Wescott, lost my wallet, and went to kappa sig where I ran into Johnathan Martinez from LHS. I don't feel fully recovered from recruitment. Katie and Siobahn, who I think I was very close w the last time I wrote to you, aren't nearly as close anymore. Katie is legit homophobic. I found out last week that I have to stay for summer A (at least, knock on wood) to take a class, which was extremely disappointing but I'm sure you don't regret that and may even be happy that we do that. I've obviously been thinking about my future a lot, and right now the plan is DC but I don't feel as attached as I did. I still want to get my Ph.D. in counseling psych and take a gap year to save and work as a psych tech, but DC may not be the route I go down (what did you end up doing?) I also have been really melancholy regarding elections, as I wish with so much in me that I could run for Vice President of Event Planning, but it's just not gonna happen. I can't logically justify staying around for another semester and spending 4k on dues just to be annoyed as **** on exec at all times. I did find out that Katie prob isn't going to run though, so that kind of makes me feel better (would've loved to see her lose tho). I really really hope you're doing well and aren't suicidal. Our future is what has been driving me lately-- otherwise, I definitely wouldn't be sitting in a class right now (even tho I'm doing this [also taking notes tho so go us]). If life goes how I plan it right now (it won't), I think you're probably most of the way done with said Ph.D., how is that? I hope you've met the love of your life in the program and that you guys have a little apartment with a cat and some plants and a balcony. I hope you still love psychology and are getting to do person-focused research and teaching, cause I know how rewarding that would be for you. I hope you've started your book, too, LMFAO. I hope that current me would be genuinely jealous of all of the places you've been-- have you been to Spain? Italy? the Rockies? Mexico? Ireland? or anywhere? I do know you must be insanely busy but in two or three short years you'll be DOCTOR QUINN (i ******* hope good god). If you are, I wonder what you settled on for your focus-- lately, I've thought of Young Men/toxic masculinity, gender dysphoria, and other things along those lines. I'm not sure if I'm living my life to its full potential right now, so I hope that you have been doing that. I feel like I've become an Alpha Gamma Delta Woman, and not in the way that I want-- I feel as though I can only talk about the Gam, and it's not that I dislike talking about the Gam some, but I KNOW I am more interesting and well rounded than that. Good lord, I just hit 700 words. Meanwhile, I'm avoiding a weekly response (less than 500 words) for my Women in Health Activism Class. I honestly don't know what to write. I've been working on self-love and boundaries and just trying to feel out my values lately. It's hard to lose two close friends. I don't feel as alone as I used to, even when I'm alone. My spiritual intuition and connection have picked up a lot in the past six months. I miss the gym. I went nearly every day over the summer and I want to get back into it so bad. I am so tired of negativity, and I really hope that isnt nearly as much of a problem for you. I guess that's all that there is. I love you, and I'm so proud of you, no matter where you are, even if you're living with Susan and Andy. (please don't be tho.) I have done some pretty incredible things in my life and I can't wait to see where I'm going. See You Soon, Nora