A letter from Sep 9th, 2021

älskling! i don't know if you still remember the meaning of this swedish word which is the first swedish word you've learnt and it was yesterday night , you've been watching Lana Blakely's youtube video : " why i write everyday.." , she inspired you as she always did when she talked about how some words are beautiful , how some writing structures amazes us when it doesn't apply to ours ; the ones we are used to. You discovered this beautiful human who considers her Youtube channel as her wonderful journal she shares with everyone who watches her , she helped you see life differently during a very short moment and what your Pastyou ( me today ) is grateful for. Lana said that ending's are not failures , shared people's quotes and gave her subscribers share their informations too , this one : " there's no better agony than bearing an untold story inside you." - Maya angelou. this inspired you and motivated you to write because you always loved doing it , i hope you are still watching content like that and that you are still writing everything that crosses your mind. the today me was reading people who wrote letters to themselves , i was tearing up beaucause of how can people think the same but express differently , i thought to myself that that what makes us unique ,; is how we feel and express our thoughts , perspectives , the situations we go through daily good or bad. so i want you to be proud of how you expressed your feelings , emotions even when it bothered the ones who couldn't handle you or help you to change for the best when you needed to , i want also to tell that i'm proud and more proud when you controled well and handled well the emotions that could've hurt others , you are so kind hearted and Mature at your 17. i admire you , i admire the version of you today , i admire how you are loving your hobbies and try to heal yourself with them , i admire you for accepting your bad moments and tapping your back at night thanking yourself and allowing it to feel whatever it is supposed to feel thanks to your psychology knowledge , you always wanted to be a therapist or a psychoanalyst. so are you now ? i wonder if you're still getting nostalgic when you see an airplane and make a promise , i wonder if you kept the promises you've made to yourself and to your loved ones. You also wanted to be a pilot as your handsome , sweet dad !! This week i did something that made me feel stronGER , you decided to forgive a soul that wanted to steal your cherished boyfriend and you talked to her and told her that you forgive her because you wanted to MOVE FORWARD , you learnt from an article that forgiveness is what helps humans to grow , you just had to follow some steps and decided to not suffer anymore , i want to remember how you felt proud for making an effort with Ghanou to save yourselft from your brain's negativbity and to keep your healthy , mature loving going . I'm also proud of how you are maintaining a healty relationship for One year that if it ends you wouldn't regret ANYTHING. Are you guys still together ? I also hope your soulmate friend is still there with you and living her best life and you are still looking good and beautiful as both of you ARE. I love you farah and hope you are happy as your name says !