A letter from Sep 8th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, You've completed your 12th std. and it's September 2021. Year 2020 and 2021 had been real bad for you but you survived till now. Let's just say me/my/I instead of you okay. Sooooo, My mental health and health overall has not been good. Eyes are yellow, lips are pale and dark circles have only increased. I have clinical depression (major), 2 types of eating disorder and social anxiety to some extent. I've told this to Mahi, Misary, Priyal, Rishi and Rutvi. Wanted to tell Muskan but didn't get a chance. I'm really not well. And obviously you know I've considered suicide so many times. Everyone has disappointed me so far means family. I've also disappointed me as well as everyone. Misary and Priyal are trying to help but no good has come out of it. Mahi is doing good in her studies, hope her sleeping habits improve. My mind is always full with philosophical thoughts. As usual I'm late so I've to go. Hope I write the second one. Still I will write something. The urge to runaway is so bad. The weight on the chest just never goes away. I'm preparing but not preparing for COMEDK exam. Just telling. Please somebody help me. I've stopped caring for things I used to care about the most. My concentration is so bad. Always having headache and dizziness bcz always on the mobile. Always on the mobile bcz running away from things. In the year 2021, Maheshdada, Madhubaa and Sameermama passed away.