A letter from Sep 6th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Months after that ****** heartbreak from that ******* who made you physically sick for two weeks, you actually started talking to THIS guy. Let me described who he is. He is a 23-year-old, 6'0 registered respiratory therapist. By the time you both swiped right at Tinder, he was a newcomer in the city and just a day old in his workplace. He might be bored and just wanna hit some locals. Of course, I was bored too. I was just waiting for the results of my admission to the university. He is originally from Davao city and graduated from San Pedro College. Eldest and has two younger sister which the youngest is just the same age as me. The nights were fun for we talked and talked but during the morning he is MIA for he is working. You want to level up to talking in soc meds so you hinted that you are doubting if he is a real person or maybe just a poser. He decided you exchange socials which is IG for you are ashamed of your jeje pics actually. You talked there. He greets you good night and the good morning which is very mushy <3 and you find it sweet. You tried to video call and since IG is ******, you decided to level up in Messenger and become friends on Facebook and you are talking since then. I am trying to live the moment since I do not want to hurt myself overthinking what will happen in the future. I wanna give chance myself to experience something great as this. Yet, when I think deeper I had to deal with lots of factors. He is already working and I am still a student. I have very strict parents which are very hard if I wanna go out on dates and of course I am not allowed to have overnights with him of course. Plus he does not share the same faith as to mine it does not matter to me but of course its a bug deal to my parents. Thats just the problem. I try to be good and kind and so far we dont have any argument since he is patient to me. But of course, he has a **** and having a **** is considered as a red flag. He told me stuff that relationships should not center to *** and I guess he wont through that phase already. He tells me he is willing to wait till I graduate and willing to help me in cardiopulmonary lerssons. Okay I was kilig but tryna supress because he might be playing, alright? He is not that attractive but he is kind. Its more than that. And I guess, I like you, Kent Jibe. Hope he liked me back. <3 ILYSM see you in the future... Love, -Kate Lawrence, 20