A letter from Sep 6th, 2021

hi man its me again. i just want to know if u get through it, the perpetual loneliness that consumes you everyday. i wanna know of you ever find that balance between self-sufficiency and a trusted support system. why does it feel like it's so hard now? and why does it feel like it only gets harder. please i just don't want to be alone anymore, i just don't want to feel like i'm in this by myself and only myself. i extend hands but **** if i know anyone wants to hold them. i can't wait to get out of here but i feel so spoiled and stupid and helpless at 17. i want a life of my own so bad it's not even funny anymore, but i am so god **** stressed. i hope your okay bestie <3