A letter from Sep 1st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I’m currently a freshman college student at MAPUA University. I’m lost. I really have ni direction in life. I only chise engineering because it felt luke it was the obvious “practical” choice. I’m 18 year old who’s a pessimist. I hope the future me isn’t like that. Or somewhat kinda optimistic. I hope you get over the trauma of being let down by our dad. I don’t even know if I’ll graduate haha. I’m just hoping future me would though. I don’t have a girlfriend. I don’t know if I’ll ever have one even after 5 years. If you have one, good for you. I feel like I’m not ready for a relationship right now. If you ever get one, please don’t hurt them. Don’t scream at them. Don’t make them cry. Don’t make them feel bad. I already know this now but I just want to remind you that when you’re in a relationship. That very person is different from you so you should be considerate of their attirude and actions. I’m bad with emotions, so bad that I can’t control them sometimes. It feels heavy on my chest. Btw don’t know if you’ll still be an asexual. As of right now, I feel uncomfortable whith intimacy. Even if I haven’t had *** yet. I just know it within my body. Ang cute pa ni axelle, can’t wait to see her grow up. As of now, di ako kinakaisap ni daddy. Di ko na alam kung bakit pero sana within five years. Meron na siyang pamilya. Sana okay lang siya ngayon. Whatever you are in the future, sana mabait ka lang. Kahit man lang yun, sana di magbago sayo. Sana andun pa rin yung feeling na gusto mo tumulong sa mga tao. I know reading this might feel weird but I just want to say, no pressure. Don’t feel down if you didn’t meet your past selfs expectations. Where both different people when your reading this. Lastly I just want to say, I love you. And a lot of people love you. I love my girlfriend too hahaha