A letter from Sep 2nd, 2021

1 September 2021, 9PM (RUH Time) Hi Jeah, I hope you're in a place of love. 20-year-old you is currently working on herself, for you to reap the benefits of now. She is trying to build a better mental capacity and emotional intelligence because she has recently figured that change begins from within. She is trying hard to have a good relationship with food and develop better habits for her overall physical health. She's still in a constant battle with the mirror, but don't worry, they'll come to terms eventually. She's also educating herself on financial security (which I hope she was able to apply by now). There are a lot of things she's trying right now, all of which is for the betterment of you. Wherever you are right now, I hope you've made progress. In 2021, you have so much in mind, mostly ambitions and recognized learning obstacles. She is filled with gratitude, energy, and manifestations. Hopefully, you have not lost that light by the time you're reading this. I know how goal-oriented you are and I wholeheartedly hope that the efforts you put in turning your dreams to reality have come to fruition. Whatever and wherever you are right now, I'm proud of you and I urge you to continue. You can achieve anything you put your heart and mind into. You are fully capable. Please always remember to affirm yourself of WHO you are and WHAT you aim to become. Having a good mindset is very powerful. Continue training a positive brain. [I know it's easy for 2021 me to say it since I am in a place of comfort. But if some unfortunate event happened that led you to lose all that spirit, I hope you take the time to heal and recover. Please PLEASE find healthy coping mechanisms. I know how bad I struggle with self discipline but I hope you've had that figured out by now. Whatever it is, please know that success and progress is non-linear. Reality is, something unfortunate might eventually happen. It will be painful and can (temporarily) hinder you from getting to where you are meant to be, but it's a part of the process. You got this. You always have mama to cheer you on.] How's Mama, Papa, JP, JL, and Ina Usan? You have a great relationship with your family and always cherish that. Call them right now, tell them you love them. I hope Mama and Papa still have that burning passion of love between them. I hope they're healthy and they continue to witness you reach your dreams. I hope you've made them proud. I hope you were able to give back to them, or are in the process of doing so. Everything you have right now, you owe to them. How about your baby brothers? I hope JP and JL grew out to be good men. I hope they're in a path where they are genuinely happy and enjoy what they do. I hope they still call their Ate for advice and in times of need. Are you still in touch with Ina Usan? I'm sure you are. I have a hunch that she'll outlive all of us. I hope she was able to do everything she wanted to do. Among many things, these 5 people are the ones that keep you going, always. How about your social life? How's your circle? You have chosen a good set of friends for yourself in recent years. One where you can grow in. I hope you're still in touch with them (Amira, Mishu, Giulia, Shali, Gleniss, Kloyd, Louie, Ysa, TJ, Fitz, Mude, Rashid, Gerald, Mykee, Kianna, Bianca, Ohbith, Euneece, Hannah S. etc.) I hope you've kept your standard in the new circles you've made. These people reflect you in more ways than you think. Also, you've lived through a pandemic! (I hope so). By the time you're reading this, I hope the world is in a better state. I hope the YOU you've built have a place to celebrate and thrive in. I love you.