A letter from Sep 2nd, 2021

Hello, Tinejoy ng NWSSU Singers. It's been a while since you encountered "Tinejoy" self way back 2021, the very year when it all started. 25 years old Dzoi, do you still feel the same? Feeling like there's nothing going on with your life? Feeling stuck at hindi makaalpas whenever encounters challenges? But keeps living her life and do things that will make me somehow happy and prioritize myself over everyone? Adik ka paba sa kdrama till now? Stress reliever mo la ba gihap an pagiling kdrama from morning hasta matapos? Are you still supporting your number 1 gem named BTS until now? I hope you are doing great and still serving God with all her best. Do you still keep your diary on your OPPO A5s phone? Lahat ng stuff mo dun, dapat walang nakakita kasi verily open ka doon eh. Hahahaha especially about your admiration to your ever-dynamic and promising conductor who stole your heart and attention way back January 29, 2021. The most special day ever, na finally you encountered such a great man - who also wants man. But still secretly pursuing about him inside and tells no one about your moments with him. I just remembered a thought from a chinese drama I've watched noong year 2021 na, "Love is all about little things." daw. Like personally, I kinda agree with it. Hahaha like from the very first encounter we had in our lives, it rented in my brain rent free, and di niya naisipang lumayo sa isip ko for the past 7 months. About touching my wrist, (September 1, 2021) countlessly he held my wrist, hand kahit for positioning lang yung ganap dun pero deep inside it's ******* me sa super vibration na nafefeel ko. Looking in my eyes na parang nangungusap and mafefeel mo talaga yung sincerity within. Ang lagkit niya noon tumingin huhu noong di ko pa alam na may jowa siya, my hopes was getting higher pero yup, my expectations failed me. Ang daming pangyayaring naging dahilan ng pag-asa ko emehe, pero reality slapped me so hard and I am fine with it. Sure man ak na I will never managed to forget things na may connection kay Sir Jonathan, never ever. Lahat, very detailed sana hanggang ngayong yung memory ko about you. And if ever I somehow finally found someone, then okay. Pero I'll be more proud of myself if I stayed single up until this year na mababasa ko to, and kakamustahin ko yung feelings ko for you Sir Jonathan 'cause you really set my standards so high. Sana hindi kayo magkatuluyan ng jowa mo ngayon, kuan la iton. Paraos lang. Hala kalabad! Huy, pero ungod la na istorya. You're 25 years old today. Happy birthday, Bajoy! Hehehehe congratulations for finally writing your name with a LPT letters after it. MA. Ed? Ph. D? Why not? Ay. Haahahhahaha ka very palaban san BTLED. I just want to remind you about your dream course na na give up mo early years, makakaproceed pa ba kit? Unta! Wishing you all the best in life. And sana you're finally living the life God prepared for you. You finally be supporting Mama and Papa financially and hinay hinay nag-aarangkada to avail material things I didn't afford to have back then. Bahay, lupa. May balay kana kalugaringon? Kun mayda, hala congrats!!! Huhuhuhu you've wanted that your whole teenage life. To finally learn manage yourself independently, puhon. Kun waray paman balay, edi okay lang yan! We will work for it! Hehehehe with God's help. Kamusta JCM Sta. Margarita? Complete na an equipments for worship? Damo ba bago na worship team? Malago ba yung simbahan? Ah wanna ask this as a 19 years old since we are struggling in the moment pero lumalaban pa rin para kay Lord. Adi ka paba sini sa Samar? Or nasa ibang lugar ka? Diri ko aram ha pero kun diin man ak tubtob umabot, aram ko na upod ko si Lord, waray ak angay kabarak-an. As of now, September 2021 self is struggling about too many things. School, choir, church, house. Mentally comforting myself right now, I believe I'll be very fine right after this chores. It's 12:35 am na here. September 2 na ngang tunay. And I am very sleepy and tired kasi maghapon kami sa school kanina recording for ASEAN ba yun. And when I got home, do house chores ngan eme eme gihap na school works na sabay sabay. Hahahahahah kairas. Hope you are really doing fine, Tinejoy! Love you *insert blue hearts* This has been done written at September 2, 2021 - 12:38 am.