A letter from Aug 31st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Its been a decade and time will passed by in just a very simple glipse of our eyes .And seems like yesterday . Seems like I am still 10yrs old riding a bike with my siblings,dancing in a mirror , doing crazy kinds of stuff with my cousins. How can I wish as i grow older , Years will always stay memorable and happy as it should be. I just realized as I grow older, life is getting quite emotional, Sad, full of loneliness,Discrimination. Still hoping for better days . Hoping that 5 years from now i can stand alone , without fear. Hoping for good old days and better lifestyle.Dreams granted and lifestyle stable cutie. I know god is talking to me , even though i am ungrateful sometimes to question myself for having this ruined life. Though i really should be thankful for what i have right now and what he have given to me. Every night i am always asking our almighty god if it is not for me then guide me lord to the better path. Help me reach my endgame together with those people who lift me when i was down, especially my mama . Dear mama i know sometimes i offer you something that you've never hesitate to help me for mentally and financially mama,even though you are in a tough and hard in all stress ways . I know you have problems that you never told me because you were thinking i am busy too. I will always ask god to heal what bothers you mama , may you pass the problems that you are risking for now. Cause i know you will. You are my great superior hero . if god is challenging my soul then god knows how immortal am i because my mirror is you mama. I am strong because of you. Thank you for all the lifelessons you gave and show me. I will be forever grateful that god gave us a chance to meet our patterns again. Words cannot define how much i love you ma. i may not wipe your tears when you cry but i will ask god to heal whats the pain inside . I cannot offer god for anything but just a long life for you and for the rest of the family. Ma, you were there for me in my darkest times, you believe me when no one did. You help me when everyone stood by me. I will give you the paradise that you deserve ma . I will show everyone how strong the daughter of you was it to be. But all we have to do just like what you've said . Patience . PAtience will always be the key, i will be forever keeping it barely on my mind. Futureme will be amazing as it be. Ill strive harder for the life that I've ask god. I will trust him for everything.