A letter from Aug 30th, 2021

Hi cate, I wonder what you're doing at this moment. May sarili ka na kayang kwarto? May iPhone? HAHA You've been through a lot kaayo. You might be experiencing the worst right now, pero eventually, you'll encounter much worst pa. Pero I pray na magkapit lang ka. Dili siya dali, pero unta kayanon nimo. Sana may friends ka na makatulong sa mental health mo. Sana maganda na environment mo right now. Sana hindi ka nasasaktan o umiiyak. Sana medyo nakaangat na ang family financially. Ngayon kasi as I write this letter, very messy ang buhay. Kasakit ng mga gipagdaan ko to the point na I've begged Him to take my life away na. But guess what, you're reading this right now and you're alive. Alam mo, very drained ako ngayon dahil sa online class. I can't study din kasi I am not comfortable with the environment. I end up crying kay pagod na ako masyado magtiis. Pero one thing na hindi gabago sa'kin? Tiwala ko sa Diyos. I still pray for better days and I know He'll make it happen. Wipe your tears future doctor, you'll survive kasi you've made yourself strong. Proud ko sa imo, bisan na most of the times wala kay tiwala sa imong sarili. Kinsa na kaya ang tao na ginahigugma nimo karon? I hope you're not distracted. For now, I really like this guy "Ranielle Josh", kaso si Lord na lang jud bahala sa 5 years after. We've been through a lot of ups and downs, nag abot din sa point na okay lang mawala yung feelings, huwag lang yung closeness. I wonder kung ano na relationship niyo at this very day. Pero alam ko na kahit anong mangyari sa inyo in the future, both of you will be happy for each other. Naging masaya kayo sa isa't-isa, but sometimes people we love the most will hurt us jud in unexpected ways. But I pray that your heart will forgive. Can't wait to meet the people that you have right now. Sana hindi ka saktan, sana hindi ka na iwan. Always pray, ha? Ayan na lang kasi strength mo. You can't give up right now, mag doctor ka pa. May God grant the desires of a 23-yr old Cate's heart. May she get what she truly deserves. Sana may dumating sa life niya na alagaan siya just like how her father and mother takes care of their baby. Hope you are doing well in your class. I love you, Cate. Kapit lang, konti na lang! Don't be anxious ash, your 16-yr old self believes that you can. :) — CUABO, Jade Ashley Cate R. 08.30.21, 8:57 PM