Hi, I hope you're doing well. By now you're (I'm) 25, which is crazy to think about. I'm 20 (I turn 21 in three months), and if I'm honest, I'm not doing well lately. I've been thinking a lot about friendships for the past few months, and I honestly don't think I have any close friends. What caused your friendships to deteriorate, you may think. Well, it all comes down to respecting what makes other people happy. Turns out, my friends didn't and made me feel very insecure about the things that make me happy, which was extremely ****** of them because I've always been very supportive about the things that they like, even if I don't understand much. But that wasn't the only thing, to be honest. I think that growing apart happened naturally as we grew up. We got busier, and we don't keep in touch as much as I'd like to. Besides, we're very different people now. That's not a bad thing, of course, but we don't have much in common anymore and it's hard to keep a conversation. The only thing we can talk about is the past, but we already ran out of stories to reminisce about and the things we thought were funny at 17 are not funny anymore. I'd lie if I said I've been doing well now that I officially realized I don't have anyone to talk about personal stuff or to bother at some point of the day to send a tiktok or a tweet I think it's funny. Not that I ever did that with my old friends, but I would like to have someone to do that now, you know? Sometimes I feel like I'll never find my people, and that thought alone has made me cry several times these last few weeks. I wonder if you have friends now. I hope you've found people who love you and support you always because I know that's what you deserve. To be honest, this is not the email I had in mind to send to 25 y/o me, but I don't want to send an email filled with good wishes either cause I know you'll be more interested in your life a few years ago than in questions about your life now. You're welcome. I don't know what else to say. I love you. And I know that by then you'll probably be embarrassed of this version of yourself, but I hope you can love me too. Wishing for better days, your 20 y/o self.