A letter from Aug 29th, 2021

Wow, 5 years from now you'll be 22. What. I hope you still use this email so that you're actually able to see this. If emails are still a thing at all. Or if the website that sends these still exists. I really don't know why I am writing this at all because, in complete honesty, I have no idea where I will be, or what I will be doing 5 years from now. At the moment, I am in Auckland, at my mom's house, living with my boyfriend, and I'm a lazy highschool dropout who doesn't have much direction. It's level 4 lockdown at the moment, all I've been doing is playing Valorant, some Fortnite (guilty pleasure, boredom got the best of me), and watching Marvel movies and X-Files. Currently, I've been listening to a lot of Yeule, 80's music (fav is Straight To Hell by The Clash), and classic emo bangers, lol. Am I famous yet? I am happy, which is good. I think this is the first time I've been okay for a long duration of time during my teenage years. Life is slow. Very slow right now. Not to say that things aren't stressful at all, I know I don't particularly have any responsibilities at the moment, but figuring out how to exist in this society and where I fit in is what has been stressing me out. I just left my job before this lockdown started, because I just couldn't stick to it. I don't think I've cried once since I've left though, it was probably taking a bigger mental toll on me than I realized, and was for the best that I left. Just sucks because now I don't know what I'm going to do for money. I like having money. I think everyone does. I hope that you have enough money to get by, wherever you are now, and you've found a career that you enjoy. I hope you aren't basic asf and I hope you're still a hot mf. I think these letters are a lot more interesting when I'm sad. Maybe I'll write another when I'm sad, maybe I won't. I hope that everyone in our family is happy and healthy. I hope there are people that you love, and people that love you back too. I hope that you are happy. Sorry this letter wasn't super long, like I said, I have no idea what to write. Love, 17 year old you.