A letter from Aug 28th, 2021

Heylo, 🌻 How's everything? I hope good, I have to. Uhm, I'm writing this exactly 15 days before med entrance, and I'm scared as **** somewhere deep. I mean I'm so scared I am not even scared. Haha, also the strange boon that I can't literally forget anyone, even if it's a tiny encounter at some random app or site. I respect people and their decisions, but I know not to be too harsh on myself for anybody else, ever, ever again. I'm not a body, I'm a soul, and I have a body. I don't really care what people guess/think/ categorise my gender or ********* even when they can't understand me, not with the thought system they have. I haven't ever fall in love with anybody in the real bone n flesh world ( I'm excluding the ldr stuff, I never really met anyone) Aah what a strange, beautiful life. Tar opor, there's this burn out peeking out from the corners. Anyway, past isn't all about "bad" Things and want to be this or that. I got myself back from so many downs numerous times, I became my own therapist, I handled terrible situations, I went through so much of such things that people fear, but I don't fear, I am not afraid of those depths, and I never was. I'm strong in every atom of my body, I've done this before and I'll do it again, a thousand more times if needed. But, I, won't give in, not to the downs of life, or any particular situation or person. I'm not a Phoenix, I'm a human, but I don't need to be a Phoenix to learn from it. I know what I've done before and everything about me, every bit, from my birth till this moment, makes me who I am, and I am very very proud of who I am. I will rise and Live my life in a way that ***** one day when it comes, will salute and smile looking at it. Don't give in yourself. Ever. Yours magically Guy with a doe patronus 🌻