A letter from Aug 26th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Happy 25th birthday. This is coming from yourself, 5 years ago, at 20 years old. Life is really hard right now. Honestly, I'm not sure I'll make it to 25. If I do, I'll have this letter to look forward to. I used to write these a lot around 14/15 years old to receive on my 18th birthday. When my 18th birthday came, they were honestly super underwhelming. A lot of dumb drama. This one will probably be the same. I'm sending you this from my first real apartment with Jasmine, school is supposed to start in like a month, assuming it even starts again (thanks, delta variant). It'll be my last year of college before I have to figure out what I'm doing for at least a few years. By now, you'll know what I did, obviously, but I have absolutely no clue what to do. Mom says I should become a flight attendant or something. Auntie Chris says I should travel the world, too. It's really trippy to think about how much can happen over the next 5 years. Hell, I would've never predicted the last 2 years with COVID-19 and the whole lockdown. I really hope you're past all that, even if realistically I know that isn't gonna happen. Every day I feel like I'm wasting my life, not making friends, never going out, sitting in my apartment all day filling time with things like this. Anything to distract from what my life has become. Anyways, this upcoming weekend (meaning tomorrow) I'm going home to visit for Jack's 19th birthday. I won't be there for his actual birthday, because it's on Wednesday & I have the final appointment for my ADHD assessment on Monday and job interviews on Tuesday. I really hope that assessment was worth the money. It was **** expensive. Did you ever get to move to New York with Alysa? If not with her, by yourself at least?? I really hope so, because it's always been a dream of mine to live somewhere like New York City or Italy or some wild off fantasy land. If you haven't yet, you totally should. You're 25, at this rate probably still single, and definitely do not have children yet. If you have, hell yeah!! I hope it was everything I imagine it is. Are you still friends with Jasmine? I wouldn't be surprised if you weren't. How about Alysa? I hope that one lasts at least. What about Arabella/Sunn? I really want that friendship to last, I appreciate her a lot. I can't think of much else to say, so I guess its time to wrap this up. I need to pack anyways. I hope things get better. I don't know what I'll do if they don't. Love you, PastMe