A letter from Aug 26th, 2021

Dear Future Me, I'm writing from 2021, 26th August. Hope you're doing well. How's life? I just thought it'd be good reflect on what I will do, and you've done in the past years. Go back and think. Think... Think... Think... Exams are coming up. I need to start studying. I was a healer today-I consoled someone. Not gonna lie, it felt good. It's tiring you know? Doing and having have to achieve **** and satisfying everyone and keeping it together and wanting to be better, the best. I just want a break from this. But I can't have one. Because to get what I want, I need to work, harder than everyone else. But yeah, life seems okay right now. All the drama won't matter in a while- to us- anyway. I need you to know that NEVER ever stop working hard. Working towards your goals. I'm not asking you to work hard for yourself, I'm asking you to work hard for me, because believe it or not, I look up to you. I look forward to become you. And I know right now, what I want to work as when I grow up. I'm trying. I swear. But I just get distracted. And it's okay. Okay to be tired, to just want a break. Don't EVER overwork yourself. Just know that whatever happens, whatever we become, I'll be proud of us. Proud of us to have overcome whatever obstacles we had to face, whatever challenges, whatever work we had to do, the sacrifices we made, the effort we put in me so a new, better me came out and she's reading this. I know me and I know that you are too getting distracted, but haven't stopped working hard, comparing to others, wanting to be the best. I'm trying and so should you: don't compare to others. Wanting to be the best is one thing but comparing to others won't help. Instead, try to compare to yourself. Compare to me. And try to be a better me, be the best version of me that you can be. I messaged my friend this today and I think you need to hear this too: the marks aren't important. it's how much effort i put in to get those marks. and if i'm doing all the work then i should get more. people don't credit themselves enough. and by accepting the marks that aren't putting emphasis on my work done and not the result it's not fair. teachers can't see how hard the kid is working because it's all online they only see the results and hence the ****** marks. i'm not saying that u (my friend, she scored better than me) don't deserve those marks. of course u do. i don't know how hard ur working behind the scene to say u don't. but if i've gotten marks that don't satisfy me then i know i should work harder. And this other girl said in the class group chat that we're (me and the friend from the above message) working too hard for 8th graders because we've started caring about our college applications and working hard on our grades for that. And what I realised that I care. I care about me because I care about what I'll be doing in the next few years. It's important to live in the moment but before doing anything, before impulsively acting, think of the repercussion. It's okay if you are frustrated with yourself. Completely fine. But never stop crediting yourself or giving yourself lesser than you need, because you deserve it. I don't care if no one loves you. I love you and you need to love me too. Don't hold onto something in the past. There will, no matter what someone who is better than you. So have faith in yourself and do your best, the universe will decide who deserves it- you or someone else. Read this whenever you need to hear encouragement or stay grounded or just need someone there- know that I'm always there, no matter what. When you feel like giving up- on anything! You can do anything. You can do the best but ALSO the worst. You are capable of anything and reading this is supposed to help you to get back up from whatever happened. Lastly, be happy. It's okay to fall but picking yourself up afterwards is also important. It's okay to be sad because only then you can know what it is like to be happy. It's okay to not be satisfied with what you get (grades, marks, etc.) for yourself because that is when you know you need to work harder. Hope you write again, like me, to a future YOU. Love me, Now and forever.