A letter from Aug 23rd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I'm scared. I've been sick for 4 days now. My fever hasn't gone down and my sense of smell and taste are getting weaker and weaker. I'm scared. I worry if I got infected by COVID-19. I don't go outside often. I only go out maybe twice or thrice to buy something at the store nearby our house (I always wear mask when I'm out) and I haven't been to the mall or downtown area for awhile now. Last Friday, August 20, yanyan and I went to a Korean convenience store and afterwards at the pharmacy. Then at DBP to withdraw money. By Saturday night I already have mild cough. (My mother was sick and was coughing since Thursday or Friday by the way.) I don't know where I got infected (not sure if this is COVID-19 or common cold/flu). I don't know if I got this from my mother (she doesn't wear a mask at home even when she was sick & coughing. She thought it was her UTI acting up) or from outside. As of today, Aug. 24 04:23AM, I'm still hot and coughing sometimes. At home, many of us are also sick. Shiela, my younger sister is sick (she works at DOH) and later today she'll be taking a swab test to confirm if she got the virus or not. My 1-year-old niece is also sick :'( it breaks my heart because she's still so young. I hope it's nothing serious. My 10-year-old niece has a cough and mild fever(?) i think. I really hope that the rest of my family, especially Langlang (6-year-old niece) will not get sick. I'm scared for myself and for my family. Even if I rarely go outside, I still got sick. I'm not vaccinated yet you know. :'( I hope my condition will not worsen, as well as my other family members'. I can still get up, walk and have enough oxygen. I'm not out of breath or something. I do hope this will not worsen. I feel like I still haven't done a lot of things in my lifetime. I'm only 26 years old. I want to do many things. Please! I hope I can recover already. 🙏🏼 I hope I will be able to read this message 5 years from now and look back at my experience and be thankful that everything's already fine. My 27th birthday is on October 3rd. I'm being quite pessimistic (but hopeful too!) but I hope I can still celebrate my birthday even without a big party. By the way, today is my Mother's birthday (August 24). Happy Birthday, Ma! I was looking forward to this day cuz I want to happily celebrate it w/ her & family. But I can't bring myself to be 100% okay... cuz I'm scared. Everything will be okay, right? -Carmela B.