A letter from Aug 22nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Dear FutureMe, I have no clue what’s going on now. Not sure what’s gna happen with Libby. Not sure what’s gna happen with school. Not sure what’s gna happen with college. I’m having a hard time finding motivation right now but I know once I get into the groove it’s all gna work out. I truly do believe that I can do this and really succeed this year and in years to come. I am really confused about libby recently because at times it feels like perfect real love but at other times it doesn’t feel right and she drives me crazy. I don’t know what to do but I am willing to try it out and really put an effort and see what happens. But my biggest commitment for this year is to not let her get in the way of school, friends, and most importantly, family. I need to be happy with what I have because when it’s gone I will know how much I miss it. Just go ******* crazy, tear up school, go party and have fun, balance everything well, and just enjoy life because it really is amazing. Everything that I’m feeling right now makes sense. Of course I am confused. Of course I am sad sometimes. But recognize the happy times and appreciate them because they are rare. Enjoy my teenage years. Don’t expect too much from everyone. I’m so much better than everyone and people just can’t live up to me. As funny as it sounds, I don’t know if doubting my decisions has been good or bad. I don’t know if I should go with my gut. Because not breaking up and going with my gut has ended it months of happiness for both of us. I think for me. I’m pretty sure. I don’t know exactly what happiness is like. Just try to be it. I love you ej