A letter from Aug 22nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Happy birthday! You are 30… whaaaat. I’m writing this to you at 25. It’s 7:30am and I kinda just woke up. We are in the middle of a 7 day level 4 lockdown due to the delta strain of covid 19 getting into the community. I hope you are able to travel now! We can’t go anywhere at the moment. We opened to Aussie recently but had to close off again. Anyways. More about you; you’re working at Matakana Botanicals. You’re on $23 an hour paying $165 a week just in debt including student loan, personal loan, and personal training loan. You still want to be a PT, but are not yet. I go to snap fitness in warkworth and currently training for my first half marathon in Tauranga in September 19-which may potentially get postponed. I ran 13k the other day in one hour 50mins - horrible time 😂 I hope you have a much better relationship with food and training now than you did here ❤️ Relationship wise I am in love with Ethan right now. He is stuck in Whangarei and I’m stuck down here so we can’t see each other. I hope you have stopped smoking! That is one thing I really hope does change. I hope Sarah that you two are a lot more open and honest with each other and tell one another when you need something or are upset. I point in holding this stuff in. I just hope you are happier and more true to yourself in your romantic relationships. Friends wise I’m living with Zak, Brooke and Danielle. Zak is still studying design, Brooke is waitressing/about to start in a Bakery and Danielle is waitressing. Are you still friends with any of them? I just wonder what they’re all up to now. I can only imagine how different things may be in 5 years. I hope to have more meaningful connections for my friendships and relationships. I hope to have a great support system. I hope to be more mindful than I am now. More grateful even though I am today. I just hope your mind is just as healthy as your body. You are strong, you are powerful, you are confident and you are successful. It’s just mind blowing to me that I’m ******* 30 in 5 years what the hell… I’ve scared myself 😂 like right now, I also don’t want kids. I’m terrified of having them and almost really don’t want to. But I hope you are closer to your choice and have thought about it more as I don’t think I would want them until early 30s anyway IF I was to have any. Anyway, I need to get up and pee so imma leave it at that. Have a great birthday today I hope it is filled with joy, surprises and love! ❤️❤️❤️ From, yourself, 5 years ago.