A letter from Aug 21st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, ok youre 20 today.and i am 15.hope ur ok.everything is fine.atm i feel like wish i died in a peaceful way.i wouldnt mind dying (peacefully).even more peaceful if its with my family.cuz they dont have to experience my *****.my parents split up this year earlier.but everyhting seems to be fine and all that.but sometimes i feel the loss of my mom.ok. now that ive done talking bout my current situation.lets talk about you. hope you get a girlfriend.right now i have a huge crush on liv and dibs.lol.and i even dreamt about marrying liv and livin in LA being a youtuber ,an actor .speaking of youtubing hopefully you have a successful yt channel.right now in the ahmedmusaib channel i have 39 subs and 18 videos,total views 2202.i want to make skits like calebcity and longbeachgriffy .also i want to make vlgos like davidobrik,but i cant make vlogs cuz my frends suck.rn i make insta edits. ok .rn im stressing about my ssc syllabus.i want to go to IBA,or some good university.if i study abroad i want to go the US.by this time i want to have a yt channel with 1mil subs.i want to settle in us making youtube vids. hope your ok and you make me proud. plus sometimes you may feel like carrying a cyanide pill with you but dont.and love your parents unconditionally .your bro may act like a pig but hes actually goood. how are your friends fuad.sindid and muaz?keep in touch with them. which uni u are in rn try to make the best out of it and get out if you dont like the subject. my fav teacher rn is polash sir,motaleb sir and warda ma***. ok love you bye. and never let go of the camera