A letter from Aug 21st, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I know this is going to go down badly for you if this is a no, but is covid stil a thing? I'm so done with it and it's so frustrating trying to find out more about it just to get a "we don't know yet".Context: delta variant's been here for a month or so and is ******* everything up, and Papa also got covid a week ago or so. Masks are still going to be on for this school year, but I think they're planning to take them off after a month? Sounds like a horrible plan, mainly because of the exagerated number of Karens who think "it's gonna change their DNA and make their already menopausal bodies infertile!!!". I think I'm just done with it all, I've gotten my hopes up so many times just to be disappointed in a matter of hours, or worse, I build up my expectations, and last minute, they cancel. I have way too many examples, it's just depressing. This is seriously going to give me trauma ahhaha. Also adding to the fact that not very social Mia has to be even less (yes it's possible) social, mainly when people are having unsafe parties and whatnot, so I just have to scroll through all those stories while in my bedroom eating chocolate to eat away the sadness. I tell myself that maybe if covid wasn't here, and I'd be able to go to a big party, I'd finally open my people circle, but let's be frank: I have not been invited to a multitude of parties, all of the parties I have been invited to (through friends of course, who would ever think of adding Mia to the group chat, unthinkable!) are filled of people I can't stand and well people in Switzerland are just not fun. Anyways, just reminding you that it's okay if you hate the Swiss, 'cause they suck, and if you had a lame junior year, it's normal 'cause your school sucks ***! ...Another tough question. How did the first partials go? I'm not really that worried 'cause they're all classes we're okay at, but I'm just checking in. Just a reminder: YOU ARE NOT NATHAN. It's okay if your test scores aren't as good as his! Honestly, I'd be really worried if they were... Also, if you did **** up, you can still catch up on the 2nd since they have more value (not sure how you're gonna do that but I believe in you, you can do anything if you put your mind to it!!) I guess that's it. Whenever times get tough, just remember: at least I'm not 15 year-old Mia, **** was she depressed! Nah jk, I mean it's not wrong but... If you're in a bad place, you're the only one with the key to leave the... place? What I'm trying to say is: you control your life, you choose if it's ****** and if it's not, I know it sucks to have this kind of responsibility, but having the ability to choose is liberating. Also! Good luck on uni applications! You got this! It's ok if you don't get into your #1 school, aka UCSB, there are a bunch of other great options. This Mia is absolute **** at essays, but I believe in you! Yes, you've worked hard enough, you've done a bunch of extracurricular and you're passionate, so I truly believe YOU GOT THIS! Don't forget to breathe. Mia

Epilogue

about 17 hours later

Hey PastMe,

Yeah, covid is still a thing... Well, I had almost forgotten about it until I got here at UCSC for the Summer Session, and people had to start...

Csubeea iggon ehmo fo eiitosvp stste. Eenb a nthsa' weilh my of a segiaknp ni ewihl ith of lecnadcle dedar aevh e!ttrbe me eur'oy os rof it but ewf ttah ttha of n,ow eascebu tis' pnasl revy.
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Yuor ysdartaillc caegdnh has rilcce rinefd. Igsl"r el,wl essug i 'neahvt tou i eayr thseo" uhng on!w twhi ofr ,yuo reov necis. P)eslca, ssel nrfeisd tceslos of ahtt os psotpru hda fo fehidsirnp my petrnta ro gruop i ntdsiae 5 ro that jsut my ast'wn hte tath tssmey cg,adnhe mrof at,ht iseroncd yuo veha pelepo sah nifdtrfee niteseyllsa oelepp saawly i lal( eomr bste. . . O,ecn 'dtno og on swa sl,npa oame,nyr tlsil ibg srelmla satst!e the i ubt l,scyotnequen kewsedne orf ellray rfo i osgriean efbroe ftel to i i rpaiste eht ubys and.
Sujt ahtt tou tath tub miss drnuekn i of vsgienen i egssu atth ewlho i antc' ndo't civrtie,o pgoru, i urogp egrw ysa ,fisoe whti nad thsoe. Egt em rd,knu sayw my lltis eivblee i ndfi i. Utan dna i nwo dsd'a ahsocci,llo rroedwi idse m'i alu,tclya no ym rewe e,llw ym dan deniirognercs out sseug ofnud ihsbat ltteli my a atth nda i hatnfaedrrg.
Yeprtt rea rae t,bu ni vene fun poplee heter z!aneldrwtis theer ufn sgyu. . . Dveulow' icsne dgtina lcsas and in ynol been ubt hwo difye!nrbo tug!th!?oh ffilloiyac 'ewve oiggn for isgprn oalm uto sesl thna lfnrtgii llauysca lel,w ye,ah ehav a ewd' bkera icnse eben a i auayjrn om,thn. Velo asw hrewe slilt ipfnedisrhs on neo ouy ni( i lie)f lufuecscss but esakd rd,wos saw ym lteret i hte i ohhgttu flex i sgues boaut aws flie gi,nog to aws iwdrore i who getntig itexdec orteh ym htwi vleo hsti my.
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Siwss i oarmeny htea sawyya,n ndto' eth. Os eoms ,lyuatalc own im' lopepe embceo ttha of ot dnki giva,lne ev'i rdiowre fo hecttdaa. Mteh tsi,e eilf ot i wtan 'ndot csadre of i'm sehte adn oituwht sole. Tno i( i treyhe' sgeus ied,) eoeplp bt,u inggo on ot dan tmhe etme ill' lfie oegs nwe i now't mnae, dna osle. 'tsi jsut. . . Rbylboap nogan rhtu ist'.
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Ewtn eht aaisprlt rsift. . . ,llwe as rlsu,set as jstu dogo gdoo rwee yhet i gtotuhh tno. Godo whit asw ton 4 sa aefdli 3, a hitw gothuht mscui yrthsoi i as i a dna. Bdmume adn my )ma engbi autob otn i uotba an(d i llroave tslli that uto ighh as 5, os sa exepcedt esocr aws. . . Hhgi as th'annas dan tno sa. . . Tub ti im' tntgieg vreo. .
'ttahs i cdesno hte cfnhre gietngt dan eth iaeyelsclp orf fleadi a iuaoxns e,geraln lttlei i'm whta isnec in arslo aipsratl,. . . . Dna m'i that inef eb os geiv itderc ioggn itlnlge ubt hsit oeenervy me orf fsfut ttha mlesfy ueghon pksee i 'tnod ot. . . Em easpt nngoa kpee it ritean ahtt i'm form it wroik,gn sjut cebsuae eolv i nda yuo, uqote mzagain jstu let.
Ecoohs eavh hginva si idnk tshi oy"u fi ohesco fo ont, it eht if kown lnoroct ot uyo ilf,e tsi' yoru tebsoy,rlsinpii inagrbielt thiyts usskc to ytbaiil btu s'it i adn. ".
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Iun my sesug ginhappcroa woh i m'i oapnicsaptil laso hta'ts. Not npiaglpy ot hsduol hgtuo i'm syyaawn so eb chsoslo i tath yanm rgalith. In tol icivneger reerldafs antnah i i a a ro tog aws lhousd be odwrrei tub newh fo iestcejrn,o itgahlr i leittl ihntk fr,eyabru. Tno iticepeotvm sa oh'dlsunt adn as ghhi lifed ganimi mi' be ym.
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Essgu it i lwel s'hatt. Me ongna m'i twrei a ueruft to go fo 3202 n,ow etlert. Rhe yrve im' oidrwer rfo.
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Dbg,yeoo.
Mai.

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