A letter from Aug 20th, 2021

Dear not 16 year old me, I'm writing this the day I got home from being a staff at billy, I should've sent this a while ago but **** got busy. You had the best time of your life so far - hopefully that changes but I can understand if it doesn't because it would be hard to beat. As you receive this it will be your last summer before you are theoretically free from the hell that is waterloo engineering. Was it worth it? Right now I can't imagine it would be, did you have the balls to just quit and get back to camp? I hope you're going back next summer I hope you can do that for yourself. You loved your hadracha kids so deeply I hope that impact lasts. You better have been in a proper relationship by now or i swear to god im going to cry, literally just give up at that point and date a dude - it is not worth it. I know realistically that you probably wont be friends with the same people by the time you read this but maybe reach out and say hi to the bloor CI gang and the staff team - they used to be people you loved incredibly deeply. I hope you're doing okay right now future me, I hope you read this and remember a time where you were happy and so so afraid but it wasn't for any good reason, that you get out of it so much happier and it was all just me being a dumb kid. I Hope you feel loveable because its something I am working on - I hope you grow up to not think you sound like a narcassist for saying that. Here were some big parts of this summer you should tell people about - survivor being crazy af, the mural grind, whatever the **** happened to you on the last night of camp (please never do that again i hated that so much), your friends you made, amogus ap, nut wars, hadracha times - look at those pictures you took in that tent. I hope you can be happy again soon and that you love your friends and you have as few struggles as you can, or that you dropped out and ****** everything up because it would probably feel really good to go crazy like that. I don't think you will though, but what do I know you can be a completely different person. But please - COME BACK TO CAMP. With love and lots and lots of worry, 17 year old you <3