A letter from Aug 19th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey! Claiming that you now have an MD on your name, and officially a licensed physician. You have been working hard for that. As I write this, you just had the biggest setback in your dream. One that humbles you and reminds you of your weakness. It came very unexpectedly. You really thought you got your practical exams right 😅 but don’t worry. You’re moving on day by day. I’m just glad you went through the month alive with a little bit of hope and faith. Although you still fear failure, at least you’re trying to move one. You applied to 2 medical schools to try to continue your dream. Now you’re just waiting for your interview in OLFU. I don’t know the future but I pray, hope, dream. These days i’m still sleeping each night hoping not to wake up the next day. Life is heavy and deep inside I have this longing to stop everything, to just abandon this life despite all the loose ends. I’m constantly thinking about ***** but I’m really trying to be better, get through the day, surviving day by day. I’m constantly thinking about this person that introduced me to sadness. And I hate that occurrence. I hope you’ve moved on now, I hope you had closure. Most importantly, I hope you’re celebrating your birthday. I hope right now you have the joy and desire to actually celebrate your 30th year in this world. If you’re reading this, I know that it is worth celebrating because then you would have lived long. You’re on your 4th decade and I sincerely hope you have the desire to go through many more decades. I know that life gets better so I sincerely hope that life is getting better wherever you are. Sincerely, ezmxnry