A letter from Aug 18th, 2021

Dear Future Me, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FUTURE ME!! i hope you're doing great. how does it feel to be 19? i don't see myself being 19 lol. not in a bad way but it's weird to think that i'll be 19 in 5 years. thinking that makes me cry LMAO. how's everything? do you have a pet? do you finally have a boyfriend??? if so what's his name? i hope it's not a yt name HAHAHA. i'm into asian guys HAHA*right now*. are you still into them? i think they're very cute asian people :). are you rich like you said or been thinking like you used to? i hope you're actually this time bcuz 14 year old you isn't that happy right now. ARE YOU STILL FRIENDS W EDDIE?? i hope so. he's a very good and caring friend. also, are you still timid and shy like you are right now? *14 year old past you* i hope your dad isn't the same anymore LOL. he's kind of strict right now in present time {2021}. he makes you feel like you're not enough but he doesn't know that he makes you feel like that. his words just come out from his mouth like they're nothing. i still love him tho, he's my dad. what about mom? is she less strict? i mean she really isn't THAT strict as dad but i love her so much. if this gets to future me...please give a HUGE hug to mom and dad. tell them that your past me told you to give them a hug. HEYY, do you still stutter to talk both languages?? i hope not cuz it's embarrassing. you even had some spelling errors while typing this LMAO. i really hope you're still friends with Jarilyn haha. has she changed? are you still friends with her? i wanna know so much right now haha. i hope you're still friends with those 2. i don't know what else to say lol, just remember to not worry about everything. that's all you do right now. you overthink too much. you let your thought get to you and worry about things you aren't supposed to. don't overthink everything and just live your life as if it's the last day. hopefully you get to have kids and watch them grow. i hope your siblings are still with you. i love them all equally even tho sometimes they annoy me HAHA. are you still sensitive? do you love yourself just the way you are? are you still insecure about your arms? i hope not. REMEMBER that you are enough and that you are perfect just the way you are. don't let negativity get to you. and stop crying while reading this GOSH ashley. but i hope you're happy and love yourself. take care of your close friends because they are everything to me right now. especially eddie, he's been helping me with my emotions A LOT. take care of everyone. don't worry about stuff that you're not suppose to.love yourself. don't be insecure. you're perfect. you're amazing. YOU ARE ENOUGH. take care :). love 14 year old ashley <3 08/18/2021