A letter from Aug 18th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, hi love how are you doing? i hope ur doing okay. like so bad i hope ur alright. and alive. and happy. i wish u all the best. it can only go up. i’ll tell u about myself first. i just turned 17, i just passed one year of being a disciple but tbh i haven’t acted like it and i’ve definitely fell off so so much during the pandemic. oh today i got my first shot of the vaccine. probably by ur time covid is over. God i hope so. anyways senior year starts soon. im super scared bc im gonna have no friends. senior year is supposed to be this really fun and exciting year but i still feel like a sophomore. and all of my friends are graduated or in a different school. ur prob in college now wow. if not that’s cool too. prediction: montclair state. current obsessions: louis tomlinson, one direction, harry styles, zayn, twitter lol, tiktok, isolating myself from everything and everyone whoops. no that’s an actual problem hopefully that’s gotten better. my fear though is that it hasn’t and ur still in the closet and scared and lonely and have bad coping mechanisms. pls be better i beg of u. and if not pls try. i don’t have any real words of encouragement bc i frankly have no idea what im doing but i so badly want to be proud of you so at least you know someone is. it might be weird that a younger version of you looks up to you sm but you are like my source of hope so i want u to do great things and i know u already are. im capable, we’re capable but i just get scared and bad sometimes. this wasn’t supposed to be so sad lol. some questions: did u ever go to a concert ? did 1D reunite (prob not ik) ? have u had ur first kiss yet ;) ? ooh who’s president ? it’s biden rn and we just pulled out of afghanistan like this week and there is chaos omg. um what music do u listen too ? istg if u deleted my playlists i will **** u . except not really i don’t wanna commit anymore but don’t touch my stuff bro. ooh what’s ur style like ? who are ur friends ? rn it’s like elena, amanda, anaya, kamali, daryl, twt moots lol (hannah, emma, kay, ro, ez, kiera, i’m forgetting people i’m sorry but i’m not looking rn). idek who my friends are low key i’ve been a bit of a **** friend like i always ignore them bc i think isolation and loneliness is better . i know it’s wrong but i keep doing it :’( smh my head . um i don’t wanna take up too much of ur time ur probably a busy lady. i love you so much probably more than i love my current self, maybe not tho bc i’m a bad bleep (addison rae). anyways i wish u the best , don’t forget about opening a cafe and have a good day muah <3 love, su 🖤 from the past