A letter from Aug 10th, 2021

I got into a biomedical research program this summer. It sucked. I am being paid but I hate every second that I am working. I’m filling out spreadsheets. I’ve lost all motivation to do anything. I’m exhausted. I just wanted this summer to be over. Now that it almost is I don’t want it to end. I don’t want to go into grade 12. I’m not ready. I constantly feel sad and I’m scared I won’t get good enough marks to get accepted into uni. Ive only been here for 16 years and I’m exhausted. Why is life so tiring? Why is it so hard? I’m not suicidal. I don’t want to die but being alive is well… exhausting.