A letter from Aug 9th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I hope you're reading this as a fully grown and happy person or someone who is dead. You've honestly done the best you possibly can to get this far. If you decided to give up on the way, it's okay because I know how much you're struggling with life. You've gone through all the twisted games and you've pulled through till the day I wrote this letter. Honestly I really hope that you stopped starving. I hope that you stopped listening to your demon voice when she tells you to throw up as soon as you're done eating. I hope you stopped thinking about "w" all the **** time. I really wish you got to see Nala and keep Nala with you. I hope that you stopped feeling lonely. I hope that you stopped feeling scared. I hope you have someone to finally talk to. I hope you don't have to hide your actually feelings. I hope that you don't have cry silently every single night. I hope that you managed to work things out with everyone in the house. I hope that you stopped hurting your body by giving it battle scars. I hope that you managed everything with school and are now doing well in university. I hope everything went well. I love you so much but I still wish that you don't read this letter because you're dead. You've never really had the will to live and lately you haven't had anything to keep you going. I mean even your family thinks you're a ******* joke. But if you're still alive and reading this then I want you to keep going on and going stronger. You have yourself to take care of. It doesn't matter if you're alone or scared. Do something for yourself. Try to laugh every single day and actually mean it. Take a break once in a while. Be the person you always aspired to be. Be brave. Be confident. Be considerate. Most importantly BE TRUE TO YOURSELF.