Am I still alive ? How did I survive ? Still using the same email ?? Happy 18th Birthday btw !! Hope I’m still stanning BTS :) Am I okay ? Or am I still struggling ? Hope I’m out of that depressive **** :( Am I dating anybody ? Rihana maybe ? No she’s not into me I doubt we’d get together. Still pan ? Or am I still confused ? Is the relationship with my family gets better ? Am I still friends with Rihana ? Am I still muslim ? Do I still watch anime ? Did I finally have my dream room ? Is the pandemic finally over ? What are you doing now ? Right now I’m laying in bed, trying to figure out what I wanna be. Heh you in the future would already know. What’s it like surviving your teenage years ? Are you having fun ? I hope you do. I feel like ****, if you actually ACTUALLY survived I’m really proud of you :) I love you more than I could hate, seriously. I wish you the best in life ( If I actually made it to 18 ) - Zara, August 10th 2021