A letter from Aug 5th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Toady I just found out that I failed. I know already that I will, but some part of me still hoping for a miracle. Isn't hurt like the first time I expected that I will failed, I didn't expect anymore that i will passed this, I am lazy, undependent, worthless. I know. I don't know if she betrayed me but I just know that I feel betrayed. I'm hurting big time. I don't want to talk to her but I know that it's my fault. I trusted her so much. But maybe some people didn't appreciate the 'trust' you gave to them and it's okay, alright! But sometimes I don't understand why. Being trusted is a good feeling. It's feels like your are trustworthy, important, special, because someone trusted you. It means you have a place on that people heart, isn't it the best feeling? It's okay if you betrayed by someone it's not the end. Maybe universe doesn't want that person you trusted with, so universe make make a move quickly. Universe remove a untrustworthy person to your circle before it gets big. Today I just learned my lesson, that don't ever be dependent by someone, cause at the end of the day, all you have is Yourself. If you can, do it. Isn't bad to ask help but remember asking for help have a limit. To trust someone is have a limit. To love, give, and to receive is also have a limit. Always allow yourself to learn in every mistakes. It's either you win or you learn. That's life you can't have all you want. The world isn't fair, always remember that. If you are tired remember that is always tomorrow and another tomorrow and a hundred tomorrow. Forgave yourself to the promised that you never made. Forgave yourself to goal you didn't reach. And lastly forgave yourself for doing a mistakes. Trust yourself. In the end you're all you got. -Kikay, 8,5,2021.