A letter from Aug 5th, 2021

Dear Chels, Hope everything in your life is going okay I hope that you are genuinely feeling okay, but understand if you aren’t today, we know what day it is tomorrow the big 10 years without dad being here. Tomorrow marks 6 years it’s crazy just how fast time is going, man but I hate this first week of August because it will always bring memories of him slowly dying every single day and all of us kids just having to sit in the room with a bunch of family waiting for the day that he died. Well enough of all the sad stuff, lemme catch you up on my life rn at 18 years old. So first of we have a boyfriend who we have now been dating for 4 months he asked us out on the 5th of April after knowing him for a week crazy huh, also remember how we met? At the clubs believe it or not who would’ve thought that Chelsey would’ve found someone who she loves at a club. There’s still so much I need to work on myself to better this relationship and one of them is just being communication last night we were talking about Mum and why I don’t have a good or strong connection with her and he was trying to tell me things so that I could better the relationship with her, but the thing is is that he doesn’t realise the type of emotional pain that she put us through as little kids after dad died, emotional abuse is just as bad or even worse than physical abuse, and it’s something I don’t even know how to explain to him. I always told myself after every episode that Mum went through that I wouldn’t talk to her and yeah that would probably last a day eventually I would have to talk to her right, well instead of avoiding her I made the decision one time to just avoid having conversations with her, to just let her know the small details, I told myself I’d never want to be close to someone like her, and to this day I didn’t realise just how much I’ve left a lot of things out of my life and never told her about because I dont want her to know my life like that because all the stuff she ever said to me or is when we were younger has still stuck to me. Man it just sucks. Anywho ya girl just got put on birth control as well so hopefully no babies haha. Love you so much girl you deserve nothing but the best my love❣️❤️