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Dear FutureMe, am i still alive . who knows!!! all i know is that today 29/12/05 i have great doubts about charmaine, and my work. On the charm front i am being bombarded mentally by a woman who claims to have feelings for me but i know it is not so. I am constantly reminded that she is not living a life of luxary with me- as if i dont know! Four days after christmas and she is still trying to find the time to go and pick my christmas present. May i remind myself that there was even time to pick up stuff from my outlet yesterday to refurnish her condo next week - "But sorry no time for you."- yet i am getting closer to you and want a kid from you.!!!!!????? Why is it i am always wrong and she is always right. why is it that her timetable is given priority but mine is cast aside. If she is the wrong woman why am i wasting my time with her. Will shall see - How i wish i could have the balls to phone my italian friend and just spend the new year and a couple of days with her. I know i am very welcome , i was urged to "prendi un aero e vieni qui ' through an sms from her .At this point in time i want a woman who could be on my same wavelength and INTELLECT . On the work front i am under pressure to decide where to go from here . 1/ i could either weather the slowdown in sales and hope the pick up would be soon and swift or move on into property. hopefully when i receive this e mail i would havebeen treading better waters for a while. benny