A letter from Jul 28th, 2021

Dear Grace, We've been through a lot since we started college. I'm entering junior year right now and our parents just recently moved. I hope by now that you've found a passion you're working on and— more importantly, you've found peace in your relationship with Christ and comfort in your romantic and platonic relationships. You know what I mean. Jesus ALWAYS comes first. But who knows, maybe you're in a relationship with someone... If so, yuck... but I'm so proud of you because that means you've found healing. I hope you and Cheyenne are still best friends, other way I am going to be cross with you. If you're not, call her right now. Tell her you're sorry and that you miss her. And if something happened... I am so sorry. She's everything and I hope you still have something if you don't have her. Right now, I miss our high school friends. And I really miss Izzy. I hope you aren't missing her by now but if so, this is your sign to reach out to her and tell her that you miss her. Who knows— maybe you're friends again. I hope so. I hope that our siblings are healthy, holy, and happy and our nieces and nephews too. Don't cease in prayer for Dave and Zach and their families. They are too precious to you for you to stop praying for them. Grace, I am really sad right now writing this. Most of my life I didn't think I would have a future; if I'm honest I didn't want one. I'm still unsure you're ever going to read this but I love you. I don't even know what to say to you and well if I'm not the one reading this... I love whoever is reading it. And I'm sorry. And I miss you. But I'm certain I'm having a great time probably hanging out with Mimi and C.S. Lewis. What does life look like for you right now? What are your relationships like? How's mom and dad? Is Cheyenne open to being in a relationship with someone... or is she in one? Do we have kids? Little Nellie? Are we happy? Healthy? How many kids does Abi have? I'm scared for whatever it is that I'm going to live through to become you. Genuinely scared for whatever loss is coming next, but I know we're strong enough. Love, Gracie P.S. Declutter your house. P.P.S. Work out. P.P.P.S. Always forgive and never forget to say 'i love you'.