A letter from Jul 28th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, it’s the 28th of july 1:13 am, the oylmipcs r on and u just felt like writing some stuff so i can read this later on and see how things have changed when i get this i’ll be going back to school soon they announced that my age group could get the vaccine next month did we end up getting it? rn aodan us happening he told me he liked me last night i sent him that big paragraph about how i felt and we talked a bit. we didn’t sort out what we were or what we’re gonna do, we just said that we’re gonna let things happen and not force anything but i want something to happen. alex was at mine today or yesterday ig and we talked about it i still feel weird and bad about me and aodan since she kind of only liked him last week. aodan is still flirting w everyone even though he says he likes me. i’m not sure what to do, i just want to talk to him flrit w him and stop getting so jealous but i can’t bc we’re not together and idk if i’d ever be able to get w him rn. jc is coming up so i’d never see him after summer so ig there’s no point. i think i’ve realised that i do like him but i’m still not sure that it’s only the idea of him i like. i’m also on mh leriod so it might just be hormonal we’ll see. i wonder if anything will have happened by the time u read this or will it have ended. i feel lile nothing will acc happen i just don’t want to ruin our friendship bc it does acc mean a lot to me. he can be so sweet and cute sometimes and be a bully other times. he’s got a good 50:50 ratio which i like. like he was cute and sweet when i was saying i was on mh oeriod but at the same time the other day he barely talked to me sometimes and flirted w tara A LOt but we talked about it he said he would try not to but we’ll see how it goes. sometimes i feel like he’s mh twin flame and that we mirror eachother and when i stop flirting w everuone he will too but it’s super unlikely hat he is mh twin flame. ik this is sappy and cringey but i feel like we always find out way back to eachother like last summer we kinda had a thing and now we kinda have one again we’ll not really but kinda. he said he’d be mh date tk the ty ball i hope he is. i never want to not be friends w him. i feel like i like him more the he likes me and i don’t even know if i proper like him. i wonder if he thinks about me as much as i think about him. i want to kiss him ngl but i’m too awkward and idk what to do or anything like that. im so scared for jc i honestly don’t think i’m gonna be able to do it. i’m panicking and we’re not even back in school, i don’t feel like a 3rd yr at all. i’ve been doing a lot of manifesting not srs like intense one but like whenever i see 11:11 or anything like that i always do it just in case i do believe that the universe is doing something so thank you universe